[ She sighs. He should remember in a minute that he asked for this. But she does have substantial appreciation for the shoulder bump, and for him being willing to listen. ]

Like you said, there's nothing I can do to fix the past, and however miserable I am that small suffering isn't enough to make up for what I've done. And I can't die on my own even if I wasn't here, not any way that I can tell. So...

Assuming I can avoid my hibernation long enough to graduate [ which is absolutely not certain ], I think my wish will probably be to stop existing.