I sometimes do want to dwell on it. Sometimes I want to isolate myself or do other things that are objectively unhealthy. But that doesn't mean I want to be lectured to or disregarded or treated like they're doing things for my own good, which is a pretty gross and dismissive concept.

I do get that it's frustrating for them, though. I really do. Especially when it's not my past we're talking about, but the present.