[ She forces a few deep breaths into her lungs. She doesn't exactly resent that Red Son talks about Mei and MK every other sentence, but she does feel it indicates where she stands. Why it took him months and months to even agree to be more than casual with her and for MK it was immediate. And she's not sure how to explain the obvious. ]

I don't think I can put it into words.

I'm very aware of that history and how separate I am from it.

[ It's like Venti with Lumine. Yuri with Flynn. A connection she can't find anywhere anymore. She doesn't begrudge anyone that, but it still hurts. ]

I'll be fine. I knew this would-- I'll be fine. I just need a minute.