[ But having him heal the bite marks doesn't serve anything. It won't help her get over it, all it will go is draw the process out. She needs time and space with her thoughts where it will be okay when she's not okay, and that means being out of his sight. And MK's. Once she's past it enough, any twinges she can handle. She does it every day. ]
[ Sylvain is living proof that she can conquer this particular problem, she just needs that time. ]
I can use one of my room expansions for it, I am honestly out of ideas for what else to add to our place. What more could I ask for than a training room and a music room and a hot springs?
--The room will help. I don't even have words for how much. I hate to make you stay else where but we can make sure it's to your liking and comfortable. Bloodproof and burnproof. Candles.
[ If she's pulling him out of his room sometimes, she wants to at least be kind and considerate about it. ] Thank you, I feel better already.
[ Not better enough to not need the time away, unfortunately. ]
This isn't self-isolation, I'll be with my husband and housemates and partners. I promise I won't isolate or punish myself.
But you and MK deserve better than to have me hurting and resentful when I look at you. This is something I can tame if I feel safe enough, and don't feel like I have to be constantly clenching down on my reactions. I need to be able to get ugly sometimes.
I'm sorry, though. I know how it sounds. Believe me that I'm not trying to put emotional space between us, not for more than I absolutely need. Because I'll miss being with you more than you can imagine.
Just take the time with him so that when I'm able, I can steal some of your attention again. [ She knows how new relationships are. You struggle to come up for air. That's also part of her wanting the time away, so she won't have to ask if he's free and then wonder why he might not be available. ]
When I can, [ aka no time soon ] I'll probably talk to MK about making some kind of non-rigid schedule so we're not both staying over at the same time for a while. Since I'm not there anything close to half the time it won't be an imposition on him, I'd hope. [ She has such demands on her time and her nights. She'd want to be there more than a sixth of the time but definitely nothing near half. ] Obviously if things come up then they do, but it would probably do both of us good to step into things slowly.
Are you okay with all that? If you're not, tell me and we can figure it out.
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[ Sylvain is living proof that she can conquer this particular problem, she just needs that time. ]
I can use one of my room expansions for it, I am honestly out of ideas for what else to add to our place. What more could I ask for than a training room and a music room and a hot springs?
--The room will help. I don't even have words for how much. I hate to make you stay else where but we can make sure it's to your liking and comfortable. Bloodproof and burnproof. Candles.
[ If she's pulling him out of his room sometimes, she wants to at least be kind and considerate about it. ] Thank you, I feel better already.
[ Not better enough to not need the time away, unfortunately. ]
This isn't self-isolation, I'll be with my husband and housemates and partners. I promise I won't isolate or punish myself.
But you and MK deserve better than to have me hurting and resentful when I look at you. This is something I can tame if I feel safe enough, and don't feel like I have to be constantly clenching down on my reactions. I need to be able to get ugly sometimes.
I'm sorry, though. I know how it sounds. Believe me that I'm not trying to put emotional space between us, not for more than I absolutely need. Because I'll miss being with you more than you can imagine.
Just take the time with him so that when I'm able, I can steal some of your attention again. [ She knows how new relationships are. You struggle to come up for air. That's also part of her wanting the time away, so she won't have to ask if he's free and then wonder why he might not be available. ]
When I can, [ aka no time soon ] I'll probably talk to MK about making some kind of non-rigid schedule so we're not both staying over at the same time for a while. Since I'm not there anything close to half the time it won't be an imposition on him, I'd hope. [ She has such demands on her time and her nights. She'd want to be there more than a sixth of the time but definitely nothing near half. ] Obviously if things come up then they do, but it would probably do both of us good to step into things slowly.
Are you okay with all that? If you're not, tell me and we can figure it out.