I'll pick up an expansion in a bit. And I'll use the time to buy the furnishings and things for it. I'm quite sure I know your taste well enough. It will be something concrete to occupy me and remind me that the separation isn't forever. [ Even though she's the one asking for the time apart, it still hurts. It's still hard. She's hoping that going through this small challenge will make things overall better. She doesn't want Red Son or MK to feel as though she's always in the background, hurt and disapproving. Getting over her rough feelings at once will be best for everyone. ]
--All the rooms here come sound proofed. Have you not noticed that? [ Living in a house with so many people, so many couples, so many booty calls, you figure these things out. ]
[ She moves her arms around him, the movements almost tentative. Holding him loosely. She's still fighting the urge to run off -- but she isn't. It's something. ]
We'll talk often. I'll make sure that at least once a day you can hear my voice. [ She doesn't want to fade out of his life, that's not the point here. ]
Just -- please use the time to work out whatever needs working out with MK the best you can. And if you need to process that with someone, I think that, for now, it would be best if someone else helped you with that. Although I'm very glad you trusted me that far.
[ She can't be the confessional anymore, not about this. Not for a while. ]
I'll let you know when I'm ready to ease back into talking about those things. I'm fairly sure I can do it gracefully. I'd never want you to feel like MK is off-limits entirely for discussion [ because probably it would mean he never says anything at all ] but as far as working out your relationship issues, it will take some time before I can manage to listen to it. Not much time, just a little.
[ There is a marked hesitation when he mentions her talking to MK, her entire body tensing sharply. ]
I need time for that. I can text him and let him know things are going to be okay, that's manageable because it's the truth. But he made me promise not to lie to him, and if I tried to tell him that I'm not angry right now, it wouldn't be true. My instincts are what they are -- but I'll simmer down. You described your emotions to me, the reactivity, how the initial burst isn't the real feeling, and my anger isn't the real feeling. It just takes longer for mine to burn away.
I'm not sure how long it will be until I can have a conversation with him, even over text. But I'll do it when I can. I have no desire to hurt him or have distance from him.
...I really am sorry. I know this isn't the way you wanted this conversation to go. [ She tried to run, she said things that probably hurt to hear, she's going to refuse to see him for weeks on end, and she can't talk to MK. It's not a fun list of things. But that's why she needs the time away. She can see what would happen if she didn't take the time, tried to grit her teeth and force it, and she knows it would be ugly. She doesn't want that even though she's hurting. ]
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--All the rooms here come sound proofed. Have you not noticed that? [ Living in a house with so many people, so many couples, so many booty calls, you figure these things out. ]
[ She moves her arms around him, the movements almost tentative. Holding him loosely. She's still fighting the urge to run off -- but she isn't. It's something. ]
We'll talk often. I'll make sure that at least once a day you can hear my voice. [ She doesn't want to fade out of his life, that's not the point here. ]
Just -- please use the time to work out whatever needs working out with MK the best you can. And if you need to process that with someone, I think that, for now, it would be best if someone else helped you with that. Although I'm very glad you trusted me that far.
[ She can't be the confessional anymore, not about this. Not for a while. ]
I'll let you know when I'm ready to ease back into talking about those things. I'm fairly sure I can do it gracefully. I'd never want you to feel like MK is off-limits entirely for discussion [ because probably it would mean he never says anything at all ] but as far as working out your relationship issues, it will take some time before I can manage to listen to it. Not much time, just a little.
[ There is a marked hesitation when he mentions her talking to MK, her entire body tensing sharply. ]
I need time for that. I can text him and let him know things are going to be okay, that's manageable because it's the truth. But he made me promise not to lie to him, and if I tried to tell him that I'm not angry right now, it wouldn't be true. My instincts are what they are -- but I'll simmer down. You described your emotions to me, the reactivity, how the initial burst isn't the real feeling, and my anger isn't the real feeling. It just takes longer for mine to burn away.
I'm not sure how long it will be until I can have a conversation with him, even over text. But I'll do it when I can. I have no desire to hurt him or have distance from him.
...I really am sorry. I know this isn't the way you wanted this conversation to go. [ She tried to run, she said things that probably hurt to hear, she's going to refuse to see him for weeks on end, and she can't talk to MK. It's not a fun list of things. But that's why she needs the time away. She can see what would happen if she didn't take the time, tried to grit her teeth and force it, and she knows it would be ugly. She doesn't want that even though she's hurting. ]