[ A tiny smile forms. ] My specialty is finding things that can withstand some blood spatter. And now I know how to enchant something and make it fireproof, so that's easy enough. [ It costs a pretty penny, but Saya has many pretty pennies. And she'll be doing All The Quests to work her feelings out on monsters. ]
[ Saya had anticipated he wouldn't like the idea of separation, however short-term. It would sting with horrible reminders. But if she doesn't take the time to work her stuff out, she might do something regrettable, something that could make a separation that's not fixable. (Part of her wants to. The spiteful, fearful part that says he's already got one foot out the door, might as well shove him out entirely, punish him for the hurt and insult of making her second to anyone. She's ignoring it.) ]
You can call me as well. It's important that you know you're free to do that. If you're doubting, if you're worried, if you want to check in, if you want me to feel closer, then reach out. It would make me happy if you did.
[ Other than not being able to handle the "my relationship with MK" issues, she doesn't want him to feel at all limited. At all like he has to wait for her to reach out first. If she can't answer right then, she won't, but she'll always come back to it when she can. ]
I have plenty of support, don't you worry. Endless support. [ There's a reason she can be so present with Red Son when he needs her and not, this conversation excepted, let her own feelings run the show. She has many sources to process her feelings. And she's a little worried that Red Son doesn't, and she's just removed herself as a source for at least some of his stronger feelings -- but, again, it's because the status quo would probably result in her making things really bad. She knows herself that far. ]
I could never burn anything you gave me. Never.
...But your consideration of my feelings is very much appreciated.
[ She pauses, then her arms hold him tighter. ] I love you. [ And there's a reason she hasn't said that in this conversation until now, because it makes her cry. Not altogether in a negative way, though she can imagine he'll take it as mostly negative. ]
I'm still with you. I'll come back to you physically in no time at all. Barely a blink. And I'll have myself managed, I'll be fine with you and MK, and you can have both of us without any worries about it. We'll make you so happy, you'll wonder if it's truly real.
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[ Saya had anticipated he wouldn't like the idea of separation, however short-term. It would sting with horrible reminders. But if she doesn't take the time to work her stuff out, she might do something regrettable, something that could make a separation that's not fixable. (Part of her wants to. The spiteful, fearful part that says he's already got one foot out the door, might as well shove him out entirely, punish him for the hurt and insult of making her second to anyone. She's ignoring it.) ]
You can call me as well. It's important that you know you're free to do that. If you're doubting, if you're worried, if you want to check in, if you want me to feel closer, then reach out. It would make me happy if you did.
[ Other than not being able to handle the "my relationship with MK" issues, she doesn't want him to feel at all limited. At all like he has to wait for her to reach out first. If she can't answer right then, she won't, but she'll always come back to it when she can. ]
I have plenty of support, don't you worry. Endless support. [ There's a reason she can be so present with Red Son when he needs her and not, this conversation excepted, let her own feelings run the show. She has many sources to process her feelings. And she's a little worried that Red Son doesn't, and she's just removed herself as a source for at least some of his stronger feelings -- but, again, it's because the status quo would probably result in her making things really bad. She knows herself that far. ]
I could never burn anything you gave me. Never.
...But your consideration of my feelings is very much appreciated.
[ She pauses, then her arms hold him tighter. ] I love you. [ And there's a reason she hasn't said that in this conversation until now, because it makes her cry. Not altogether in a negative way, though she can imagine he'll take it as mostly negative. ]
I'm still with you. I'll come back to you physically in no time at all. Barely a blink. And I'll have myself managed, I'll be fine with you and MK, and you can have both of us without any worries about it. We'll make you so happy, you'll wonder if it's truly real.