I've considered that, yes. I think whatever organization had control over me at that point, they sent me in there as a weapon. They put me in that state so I would have no choice but to fight. And then I went out of control.
The man in black, he didn't fit in with that scene. He wasn't a soldier or a villager, and he knew me. So he was definitely with them.
-- None of that excuses what I did, even so. There's still part of me that wants to do what I did in that village again. Whether they put it there or it's just a part of who I am, I'm responsible for making sure it stays buried enough that I never act on it. [ This place, of course, makes that a challenge. So she has pacts with a bunch of people to kill her if it happens. ]
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Re: Day 486 - afternoon
Date: Jul. 27th, 2022 04:38 pm (UTC)The man in black, he didn't fit in with that scene. He wasn't a soldier or a villager, and he knew me. So he was definitely with them.
-- None of that excuses what I did, even so. There's still part of me that wants to do what I did in that village again. Whether they put it there or it's just a part of who I am, I'm responsible for making sure it stays buried enough that I never act on it. [ This place, of course, makes that a challenge. So she has pacts with a bunch of people to kill her if it happens. ]