Never, you say. I'm writing that down for the future. [ Dangerous, dangerous promises. ]
[ She swallows hard when he kisses her head. It doesn't feel okay, not when exhaustion is pulling at her and she feels like she just trapped Red Son in something that will only hurt him again and again, and for what? For the chance to maybe have a future together eventually? ]
[ But she can't say that. Can't give in to the unimaginable stress of her situation because it's harder on him, because he'll think she doesn't have hope, doesn't believe in him. There's only one answer she can give, and it's the truth, but somehow it also feels like a lie. ]
I know.
[ Her fingers move through his hair and she curls even closer to his warmth. ]
Can you talk a bit? I can listen for longer than I can speak myself. [ Even talking wears her out, but more the point it's easier to pretend she's not scared and stressed when she doesn't have to worry about her voice shaking. And she does like hearing him. ] Tell me the next project you're going to work on for fun.
[ She flashes one of those smiles that says she's not going to stop until she gets what she wants. ]
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Date: Sep. 22nd, 2023 05:49 pm (UTC)[ She swallows hard when he kisses her head. It doesn't feel okay, not when exhaustion is pulling at her and she feels like she just trapped Red Son in something that will only hurt him again and again, and for what? For the chance to maybe have a future together eventually? ]
[ But she can't say that. Can't give in to the unimaginable stress of her situation because it's harder on him, because he'll think she doesn't have hope, doesn't believe in him. There's only one answer she can give, and it's the truth, but somehow it also feels like a lie. ]
I know.
[ Her fingers move through his hair and she curls even closer to his warmth. ]
Can you talk a bit? I can listen for longer than I can speak myself. [ Even talking wears her out, but more the point it's easier to pretend she's not scared and stressed when she doesn't have to worry about her voice shaking. And she does like hearing him. ] Tell me the next project you're going to work on for fun.
[ She flashes one of those smiles that says she's not going to stop until she gets what she wants. ]