...if it would make you happy, then I won't curb the impulse. [Because he planned to. He absolutely planned to let her approach and contact him on her own time. When it was a choice between Red Son and two people he loved with countering wants, he will choose with more selfishness even if it made things complicated for himself because there was no easy answer. But when the choice was to have someone he loved hurt, or hurt himself?]
[That choice was incredibly easy.]
[If reaching out would hurt her, he would swallow and suffer with his anxiety in silence. But if she wanted assurance he wanted to reach out, then he could do that too. Even if it was to bid her good night and assure his nerves she was still reachable even if he couldn't go to her right then.]
Good. I'm glad to hear you'll rely on them. [And he means it. He knows how much not having support weighs on someone. He's used to it. Even if he has decided to try and change that now. Without the Project, with the idea of 'what he wants' in his head, he is going to make the effort to at least find more friends. Perhaps that will be something to focus on during this period when he's not figuring things out with MK.]
[Still, it warms his heart to hear she doesn't want to destroy something he gave her, even if it was more a trinket compared to other gifts.]
[There is a sharp breath at the affection. The change in her voice, the risked glance up to see tears does worry him, but he can't deny hearing the affection does ease him a bit.]
I love you too. [It's a sweet promise. It's hard to believe, the dark voices telling him this was all a mistake, he's been too greedy and he would suffer for it.]
[But he wanted to believe better. He wanted the happiness this could give him.]
[He moves a hand to her cheek.] Am I allowed one more kiss for now?
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Date: Oct. 17th, 2023 03:18 pm (UTC)[That choice was incredibly easy.]
[If reaching out would hurt her, he would swallow and suffer with his anxiety in silence. But if she wanted assurance he wanted to reach out, then he could do that too. Even if it was to bid her good night and assure his nerves she was still reachable even if he couldn't go to her right then.]
Good. I'm glad to hear you'll rely on them. [And he means it. He knows how much not having support weighs on someone. He's used to it. Even if he has decided to try and change that now. Without the Project, with the idea of 'what he wants' in his head, he is going to make the effort to at least find more friends. Perhaps that will be something to focus on during this period when he's not figuring things out with MK.]
[Still, it warms his heart to hear she doesn't want to destroy something he gave her, even if it was more a trinket compared to other gifts.]
[There is a sharp breath at the affection. The change in her voice, the risked glance up to see tears does worry him, but he can't deny hearing the affection does ease him a bit.]
I love you too. [It's a sweet promise. It's hard to believe, the dark voices telling him this was all a mistake, he's been too greedy and he would suffer for it.]
[But he wanted to believe better. He wanted the happiness this could give him.]
[He moves a hand to her cheek.] Am I allowed one more kiss for now?