I don't want to talk anymore. [ She's perfectly clear on that. ] It won't help anything. Sort of wishing I could get drunk, though.
The only drug that'll work on me is adrenaline, so if you're good for a fight or two sometime soon that'd help. [ Fighting probably leads to other forms of adrenaline, so it all works nicely. Don't judge her too hard when she brings over a man who calls her "mistress." ]
Thanks. Maybe I'll feel like it later, it's possible. Right now I feel like I need to just make this as easy on everyone around me as I can.
[ Hearing that Doctor knew before they got married and didn't tell her until far later will turn her around on the issue somewhat. In that she'll want someone to scream at about how goddamn unfair that is. Right now she just assumes Doctor had every reason to believe it wouldn't be a problem until like, yesterday. ]
Well, it is. It's no one else's fault that all this is happening.
I know it's not my choice either, but shouldn't I want to make this less hard if I can? I have the easy role in this mess, since I won't know what I lost.
There's plenty of reasons to discount it. Other people's comfort is only one of them.
Another one is that I don't have a lot of time and I don't want to spend it feeling this way. [ So clearly pretending that she's not feeling this way will help. Somehow. She's grasping at every straw. ]
You know I can't be talked out of a bad mood, it takes time or adrenaline, this will probably be both. I really wish I could get drunk right now, though.
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Having to watch someone you love fade away and then decades later smile in their face when they don't remember you is -- cruel.
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That's why no one's asking him to do it alone. We'll all be there with him. And we'll help you remember him.
[ Literally, in Venti's case, but, ]
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...I know you're trying to make me feel better, but I don't see it working right now. Maybe sometime it will. Thank you for trying, though.
[ This situation just feeds into all her fears, all her shame, all her doubt. There's no talking her out of it. ]
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[ Especially when it didn't work. ]
Anytime you wanna talk...
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The only drug that'll work on me is adrenaline, so if you're good for a fight or two sometime soon that'd help. [ Fighting probably leads to other forms of adrenaline, so it all works nicely. Don't judge her too hard when she brings over a man who calls her "mistress." ]
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[ But he stops. It doesn't really matter. ]
I'm always down for that, too.
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I'll always listen.
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Thanks. Maybe I'll feel like it later, it's possible. Right now I feel like I need to just make this as easy on everyone around me as I can.
[ Hearing that Doctor knew before they got married and didn't tell her until far later will turn her around on the issue somewhat. In that she'll want someone to scream at about how goddamn unfair that is. Right now she just assumes Doctor had every reason to believe it wouldn't be a problem until like, yesterday. ]
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I know it's not my choice either, but shouldn't I want to make this less hard if I can? I have the easy role in this mess, since I won't know what I lost.
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[ Simply. ]
The time to start discounting what you feel is when you're actually asleep, or you actually don't remember him.
In the meantime, it's not any easier to be you.
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Another one is that I don't have a lot of time and I don't want to spend it feeling this way. [ So clearly pretending that she's not feeling this way will help. Somehow. She's grasping at every straw. ]
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[ They've all got limited energy in this world, after all. It'd take some doing to purge all her touch energy, but once she got to that point... ]
You might be able to get drunk then, and even if you can't, it'd probably get you out of your head for a little bit.
[ ...He'd want to be nearby, so that he could recharge her afterwards, but. ]
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I've got one more idea — but it's totally fair to tell me you're not in the market for ideas.
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[ Since she knows he cares about her, and not just hearing himself be smart. Most people would have been told to stop. ]
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But the attempt alone sounds like fun.
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Hopefully I'm a funny drunk.
[ He is, in fact, a very flirty drunk. It'll probably be fun for her. ]