That is a good point. And it is a tragedy to eat something that just tastes terrible, especially when its not necessarily require.
There are a lot of reasons to not offer? Its dangerous, its a lot of effort, it'll take time for me to make the dimensional gate to Kantera's world or wherever you two planned to go. I should actually probably start the ground work for that now...
[There are a lot of reasons to not go out of your way for someone.]
[That gets him to start and then he starts to blush.] Well....not as such, no. Mother and I have found I can only keep my temper in check so long. Perhaps now they will be more bearable, with the other stressful factors no longer involved, but I suspect it has colored my taste.
But what I like to do- [That]
[Gets a long pause.]
[Its not like he doesn't KNOW what he likes to do.]
[Its just none of them are really show off places? Not really.]
[ None of the reasons not to go out of her way for someone are ones she especially cares about. ] If I strike you as someone who minds danger or effort, I'm clearly giving off the wrong impression. As far as it taking time... when you live forever, what does that matter? I'm not the type to ride off to a happy retirement while I could help with something important.
[ His outrageously long pause makes her smile yet again. ]
I don't always need to be doing something active. Especially if you succeed in changing my hibernation cycle I'll have a much more stable energy level. So... what is it you like to do? No trying to guess what I want to hear.
No, nothing like that, but it is a lot of effort for someone else?
I know, part of it is gratitude for your hibernation cycle, but I'm also not really risking anything myself? The worst case scenarios are it fails. [And...she loses her memories of him which is-]
[Something.]
[There is a stressed look as he thinks that before shakes his head.] It fails and literally none of the back up plans work, which I really don't think is likely.
Or you go berserk. In which case, I'm in danger of pain, but not death. Dealing with Azure Lion and his cohorts, however? There is risk of that. There is risk of being trapped in your own worst memories, or trapped at least in someone's memories, I don't know how the Scroll of Memories will work for someone not of our world, but the potential is there.
In any case, its just....a lot.
[More than he expects for him.]
[He takes a few bites of his food.]
Tinker.
Building machines. Cars are my favorite, but its just...
There is something about being able to make something, without magic, that can do powerful and amazing things that is...is so immensely satisfying. All it takes is two hands and enough brain power and bits of metal and plastic can become something that literally wouldn't have been able to exist a century ago.
[ She can see him feeling some sort of way about the possibility of her hibernating, and she doesn't think she needs to point out that he might be risking something, however small. She's seen a similar expression too often to mistake it. ]
The warnings are appreciated, but I've made my offer and I'm not taking it back. If I suffer, or die, then I do. I'd rather do it fighting than wasting away in a fog of amnesia. What good is being strong if I don't use my abilities to help people I like?
And I saw how affected you are by it. I couldn't just do nothing, not if there's the slightest chance my presence might help.
[ Her smile turns from amused to genuine when he starts talking about what he actually likes. She never tires of watching people talk about and do something that, excuse the expression, lights a fire under them. ]
That's more what I expected. I like watching people do what they love, even if I don't have the same knowledge and can't really be of any help. I'd rather see what you've built or are working on than go to some stuffy party.
[His hair is smoldering, a lot burn, not an explosive reaction to something that's caught him by surprise, but instead just...trying to take that in as so much in his mind rebels against it. He has to earn his place, he has to perform, he has to be good enough, and all he's managed for Saya so far are promises and some direction, but no results as of yet.]
[But here she's offering to fight for him because its important to him and she's decided she liked him.]
[But why why why, he was a disappointment and a failure, only really succeeding at anything after centuries of work or he's so desperate he will go along with half baked plans with crazy heroes.]
[He....]
[He may have stared for a very long time at his food, trying to just wrap around such a foreign concept.]
I....okay. [It may not be a full acceptance as much. He doesn't know if he wants to fight it, or try to push to understand it.]
[He clears his through, rubbing the side of his neck.]
I'm certainly more animated. Parties are only polite and haughty royal until I try to set someone on fire and get told to go home.
[ She decides to leave the conversation about why she'd offer her help where it sits, for now. It's not the sort of thing that can be proved in words, only in time. He's not refusing her, so she sees no need to try. He'll come to see that she's genuine in wanting to help, genuine in feeling a connection to him, and if he doesn't, that's also fine. ]
Oh, well. If you're going to light some obnoxious one on fire then I've changed my mind on the issue entirely. And I do look devastating in the right ballgown.
[Socialization is truly a process. This is why you don't spend four hundred years with near everything you do focused on a singular project of freeing your father. Gotta make some me time to go hang out at the local park or something.]
We do have to make nice less. Maybe Mother will let me do as I please since we won't need anything and I'm known to be connected to the defeat of LBD. It could lead to enough reputation to get away with such things now.
And I do miss opportunities to wear ballgowns, its been almost fifty years now.
That might depend on why your mother is sending you to the parties. [ Politics, while not Saya's favorite thing, are something she's very familiar with. Alas. ]
Hmm. [ She gives him a Look like she's imagining that and very much approves. ] Maybe you'll get the chance while you're here. I bet any such occasion here would be a bit easier to tolerate since there's fewer expectations.
True, but Mother is very good at making her expectations...clear. I'll know what lines I'm allowed to cross.
[He rubs his chin.] That is true. I could just be blunt and leave it in their hands if they really wish to mess with me.
I, meanwhile, get an excuse to look absolutely gorgeous. Its always so hard to be sure when I can get away with a skirt day to day unless its a look that combines it with shorts or thick leggings.
I do wonder what your parents will think, once they're free, of the fact that you've brought home a strange woman from another world. [ She's pretty good at being Impressive, especially when her darker side is encouraged and accepted, but even so. It sounds like his parents have expectations for him. ]
[ Saya puts an elbow on the table so she can rest her chin on the back of her wrist and give him an appraising glance. ] You look gorgeous now. But I'd certainly like to see the skirt, or gown, or whatever suits the occasion. [ The occasion being either gender expression or an event or what have you. ]
Probably relieved considering the last guests was the Noodle Boy, Dragon Girl, and....the blue thing, I can't recall his name, a friend of theirs, after I found them half dead in the desert. We were in a tentative truce so they were unhappy, but tolerating....
Until they stole the piece of the Samadhi Fire Father was safe guarding.
And then drove a hole through the outer wall. We saved the day with the fire, but I'm not so sure they'll allow a repeat visit.
A perfectly respectable and powerful royal would likely be a welcomed event at this point. Power alone goes a long way with earning my parents' respect, before factoring in the rest. Mother might even be delighted.
[Now that Father is home, she might actually consider having Red Son be courted. With the challenge being who he hasn't offended that would be worth the Demon Bull Family. Hum. He'll need to make sure Mother knows Saya is married if she seems oddly happy, that usually means Mother sees an opportunity.]
[He blushes at that, couch's, but then sits up a little straighter.] Well, of course. I've always been rather attractive. I can make most things look good. [At least that he's confident in without intrusive thoughts.]
I'll put my best foot forward when I meet them, then. And if it might make your mother happy, of course I'd be flattered.
[ Saya would not at all mind being thought of as a potential partner for Red Son, but there are logistical concerns. It's not even being married already, that's not a problem for her unless it would be for anyone else (she meant it when she said not monogamous, she doesn't limit that to physical relationships only, she's specifically wired to love more than one person)(besides, who can say whether Kantera will stick around, that is very much an open question, and even if he does she's not entirely sure she can get past that he considered abandoning her). It's not being able to live on his world full time (probably, that depends on much), and not being able to bear children without a Chevalier that she'd think would more be the trouble. Great houses tend to value that sort of thing. ]
[ Saya's smile shifts when he speaks with confidence about himself, that is delightful to see. And he's right, of course. ] I can't argue with you there.
And you've set things up quite nicely tonight, so attractive in more ways than one. [ Paying attention to little things is sexy as hell ]
As one should be. She is not an easy woman to impress. [Or make happy. Though it has been easier these days, he's still just figuring that all out. Its a whole different dynamic with his father around.]
[Though the one advantage of immortality is when it comes to heirs, its less of a concern. It could be centuries before its even a thought to ponder. It had been centuries before his parents had him themselves.]
Ah, well. Yes. [He looks more bashful at that.] I'm aware the offer was a casual thing, but it felt callous to not at least have a nice evening of it. Especially when its a new experience. First impressions and all can apply to experiences, so its best to treat them like they're something special.
[ She watches him over her chopsticks for a long moment, then she chews, swallows, dabs her mouth with a napkin. ]
I did say it pretty casually, didn't I. [ That's not a question, she knows she did. It was. Most of her partners are casual, after all. And then they set fire to a haunted house and he saved them both from emotional torture and she carried him back here and he made her food despite being exhausted and she let him bite her and she was watching her phone for days, waiting. ]
But this sure as hell isn't a casual dress. And I didn't race out nearly to the lava fields to grab those peppers on a whim. And I don't offer to go to everyone's world and help them with their troubles.
If you want casual, if that's what you're comfortable with, then okay. If that's all you think I could ever want, I know that's not true. But I also think that it's nothing that should be hashed out now... I just didn't want you believing I had my mind made up.
[He nods to the first part, taking a few more bites of his own food. It is spicier than the rice, but still made with care to make sure the base food was good and went well with the spice level. Still not enough to make him sweat, but he figures that might be when he can experiment with the glowing peppers hanging from the dried spice hooks.]
[But his eating slows as she talks because a 'but' is the last thing he expects.]
[Until he pauses, food halfway raised, staring because that sure]
[Sounded like talking about something more than casual which is a thought he had refused to even ponder despite the rush of affection and fondness he'd been feeling.]
I'm quite sure you heard me. [ One doesn't react like that to something they were expecting to hear. ]
I thought I was more clear the other day then I really was, I guess. But really, it's nothing to fret over now, or even discuss unless there's something you want to say about it.
[ She assumes he'll need time, who wouldn't? Most others don't jump in feet first to everything the way Saya does. She's never regretted doing what felt right, though, even when it blows up in her face, and she's not about to start here and now. ]
[He lowers his chopsticks. Tapping the bottom of the bowl which is definitely not proper table manners, but his mind is racing and his hands hate to be idle. It keeps his mind from going completely off the rails with this information.]
[He knows there was fondness, of course, but the way she says that implies the potential for quite a bit more. He knows people could be friends and engage in such activities. What was the phrase? Friends with....was it benefits? Most likely, it seemed the right about of crass and subtle that humans preferred for such euphemisms.]
[He had assumed that was her intent, not for...more and that-]
[Hm]
[HM]
[The tapping stops. Its been a good two minutes.]
I...don't have anything to say right now.
Making quick emotional decisions is not my forte. I always need to think about them, because when I don't-
I know. That's why I'm saying something now. [ Correcting the misconception before it had a chance to send them in wildly divergent directions, or for anyone to make assumptions and later feel stunned that they weren't accurate. ]
[ What she is implying is potential, nothing more. She's great at casual, if that's where they land, and it won't change a thing about the way she behaves. But she doesn't want to land there because she didn't make a point to say it doesn't have to. It wouldn't be fair to anyone. ]
Sorry to keep catching you off-guard. Sooner or later I'll run out of surprises, promise.
[He hums, considering for a few more bites. Then he huffs, and smiles ruefully. More amused.]
It will likely be some time. It turns out when you spend most of your centuries long life hyper focused on a project and not actually socializing, you find yourself caught off guard a fair amount.
And I imagine you catch people off guard who have properly socialized. Really, I should resign myself to at least one blind sided moment in all our interactions.
[ She chuckles, only because her mouth is full and she can't fully laugh. ]
I told you, my species has strong feelings about everything. At least I'm good with using words to explain them now.
Take all the time you like. I'm not frightened by a little patience. I'd rather cope with that then regrets. I don't have time for them, nor the desire to live with them if I had the time.
I suppose that is fair. Its not as if my emotions are exactly subtle. Its more there are too many at once, clamoring for attention. Most of the time, I know which one I want to pick, but...
Well, there's a reason mother has a time limit for me at parties.
So I try to have more care in the selection when I find myself fond of the other person.
[Which is vague, but he figures its enough to say that he is invested. That the relationship between them had some value to him, even if he wasn't sure what that ultimate value was.]
[ She'll take fond for sure. Truly, she has no expectations nor necessarily any definitive preference herself, yet. Sometimes sparks fly up quickly and then fade out just as fast, sometimes all the love in the world can't make up for circumstances, but she'd hate to eliminate options before either of them even knows what they'd want if they had them. ]
I'm glad to hear it. I knew there was some measure of appreciation at least, no one's good enough in bed to be worth an abundance of annoyance. [ And he's not exactly shy with his anger or irritation, which is nice actually. People who make you guess what they're thinking are tiresome to her. ]
[ Saya finishes the last of her food and sets her chopsticks down across the bowl. ] That was delicious, thank you. [ This she says in Korean. ]
Annoyance isn't as big of a deal breaker as you might think. [FOR REASONS HE HAS YET TO FIGURE OUT. How those two drive him up the wall and he still finds himself as fond as he is, he will never figure out.] However, I would be on fire a lot more often and far less flushed at the time if you were annoying.
I am glad you enjoyed it. [He replies before eating the last few bites of his own dish and standing up to take their dishes to the sink.]
There are a few other questions I wanted to ask before we...
Well, obviously my own preferences are up in the air, but I wanted to check if there was anything you don't want your partner doing? You mentioned before about being in charge?
[ Saya rises from her seat and follows him, snagging a dish towel on her way. If dishes need to be dried then she helps with that, or if not then generally cleaning up the table and stove and whatnot. ]
Ask me anything you like, of course.
What I don't like... you're not wrong that I tend to take charge more usually, though I don't mind more give and take with you. Instincts are what they are and I have an appreciation for yours when they flare up -- no pun intended. But being overtly submissive, I don't think I'd have that in me. Not for any extended time, anyway. [ Her temperament has smoothed out enough and she likes him enough that she'd forgive the attempt if he was piqued, but forcing the issue would insult her and risk her high temper. ]
[ She also doesn't want anything demeaning of course, but she presumes he wouldn't either. He seems to deeply not see her that way. ]
Nothing else is springing to mind. I'm willing to try most anything, see what works. It's a bit different for everyone. [ Other than the constant of her dominance thing (well... nearly constant), she tends not to have a set list, it depends on the partner. What's great with one will fall flat with another. This makes it difficult to give him a map to follow, but it does allow her to be fully present and invested in establishing a unique relationship with each of her partners. ]
As you know, I'm not very subtle. So you'll know when you're on the right track. And I'm good at diverting any slight misstep before it kills the mood.
[He does have a dish washer, but cleaning up himself keeps his hands busy. There were facts about this conversation, but it was also a little more emotionally charged then simple item prep. It helps keep him here and not too flustered as he cleans the dishes.]
That is good to know. It can be easy for me to get caught up in being domineering, knowing there is a limit is good. [It keeps him paying attention to the signals and figure out what the limit is without needing to be told off too much to be annoying.]
[He does nod as she continues and his own face heats up as he keeps his eyes pointed to the sink.] I enjoyed what we did before. I don't really know what could be a no for the most part from the lack of experience, but I will be clear if I don't like something.
But...I don't mind you directing me with a hand on my neck, but don't use a grip that would restrict air flow. I can't suffocate, don't worry otherwise. And no collars at any point in the future.
And of course water is a no go. Sorry, there will be no round two in the shower, I get in and out as fast as hygienically possible.
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There are a lot of reasons to not offer? Its dangerous, its a lot of effort, it'll take time for me to make the dimensional gate to Kantera's world or wherever you two planned to go. I should actually probably start the ground work for that now...
[There are a lot of reasons to not go out of your way for someone.]
[That gets him to start and then he starts to blush.] Well....not as such, no. Mother and I have found I can only keep my temper in check so long. Perhaps now they will be more bearable, with the other stressful factors no longer involved, but I suspect it has colored my taste.
But what I like to do- [That]
[Gets a long pause.]
[Its not like he doesn't KNOW what he likes to do.]
[Its just none of them are really show off places? Not really.]
R-racing...?
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[ His outrageously long pause makes her smile yet again. ]
I don't always need to be doing something active. Especially if you succeed in changing my hibernation cycle I'll have a much more stable energy level. So... what is it you like to do? No trying to guess what I want to hear.
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I know, part of it is gratitude for your hibernation cycle, but I'm also not really risking anything myself? The worst case scenarios are it fails. [And...she loses her memories of him which is-]
[Something.]
[There is a stressed look as he thinks that before shakes his head.] It fails and literally none of the back up plans work, which I really don't think is likely.
Or you go berserk. In which case, I'm in danger of pain, but not death. Dealing with Azure Lion and his cohorts, however? There is risk of that. There is risk of being trapped in your own worst memories, or trapped at least in someone's memories, I don't know how the Scroll of Memories will work for someone not of our world, but the potential is there.
In any case, its just....a lot.
[More than he expects for him.]
[He takes a few bites of his food.]
Tinker.
Building machines. Cars are my favorite, but its just...
There is something about being able to make something, without magic, that can do powerful and amazing things that is...is so immensely satisfying. All it takes is two hands and enough brain power and bits of metal and plastic can become something that literally wouldn't have been able to exist a century ago.
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The warnings are appreciated, but I've made my offer and I'm not taking it back. If I suffer, or die, then I do. I'd rather do it fighting than wasting away in a fog of amnesia. What good is being strong if I don't use my abilities to help people I like?
And I saw how affected you are by it. I couldn't just do nothing, not if there's the slightest chance my presence might help.
[ Her smile turns from amused to genuine when he starts talking about what he actually likes. She never tires of watching people talk about and do something that, excuse the expression, lights a fire under them. ]
That's more what I expected. I like watching people do what they love, even if I don't have the same knowledge and can't really be of any help. I'd rather see what you've built or are working on than go to some stuffy party.
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[That is a lot.]
[His hair is smoldering, a lot burn, not an explosive reaction to something that's caught him by surprise, but instead just...trying to take that in as so much in his mind rebels against it. He has to earn his place, he has to perform, he has to be good enough, and all he's managed for Saya so far are promises and some direction, but no results as of yet.]
[But here she's offering to fight for him because its important to him and she's decided she liked him.]
[But why why why, he was a disappointment and a failure, only really succeeding at anything after centuries of work or he's so desperate he will go along with half baked plans with crazy heroes.]
[He....]
[He may have stared for a very long time at his food, trying to just wrap around such a foreign concept.]
I....okay. [It may not be a full acceptance as much. He doesn't know if he wants to fight it, or try to push to understand it.]
[He clears his through, rubbing the side of his neck.]
I'm certainly more animated. Parties are only polite and haughty royal until I try to set someone on fire and get told to go home.
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Oh, well. If you're going to light some obnoxious one on fire then I've changed my mind on the issue entirely. And I do look devastating in the right ballgown.
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We do have to make nice less. Maybe Mother will let me do as I please since we won't need anything and I'm known to be connected to the defeat of LBD. It could lead to enough reputation to get away with such things now.
And I do miss opportunities to wear ballgowns, its been almost fifty years now.
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Hmm. [ She gives him a Look like she's imagining that and very much approves. ] Maybe you'll get the chance while you're here. I bet any such occasion here would be a bit easier to tolerate since there's fewer expectations.
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[He rubs his chin.] That is true. I could just be blunt and leave it in their hands if they really wish to mess with me.
I, meanwhile, get an excuse to look absolutely gorgeous. Its always so hard to be sure when I can get away with a skirt day to day unless its a look that combines it with shorts or thick leggings.
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[ Saya puts an elbow on the table so she can rest her chin on the back of her wrist and give him an appraising glance. ] You look gorgeous now. But I'd certainly like to see the skirt, or gown, or whatever suits the occasion. [ The occasion being either gender expression or an event or what have you. ]
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Until they stole the piece of the Samadhi Fire Father was safe guarding.
And then drove a hole through the outer wall. We saved the day with the fire, but I'm not so sure they'll allow a repeat visit.
A perfectly respectable and powerful royal would likely be a welcomed event at this point. Power alone goes a long way with earning my parents' respect, before factoring in the rest. Mother might even be delighted.
[Now that Father is home, she might actually consider having Red Son be courted. With the challenge being who he hasn't offended that would be worth the Demon Bull Family. Hum. He'll need to make sure Mother knows Saya is married if she seems oddly happy, that usually means Mother sees an opportunity.]
[He blushes at that, couch's, but then sits up a little straighter.] Well, of course. I've always been rather attractive. I can make most things look good. [At least that he's confident in without intrusive thoughts.]
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[ Saya would not at all mind being thought of as a potential partner for Red Son, but there are logistical concerns. It's not even being married already, that's not a problem for her unless it would be for anyone else (she meant it when she said not monogamous, she doesn't limit that to physical relationships only, she's specifically wired to love more than one person)(besides, who can say whether Kantera will stick around, that is very much an open question, and even if he does she's not entirely sure she can get past that he considered abandoning her). It's not being able to live on his world full time (probably, that depends on much), and not being able to bear children without a Chevalier that she'd think would more be the trouble. Great houses tend to value that sort of thing. ]
[ Saya's smile shifts when he speaks with confidence about himself, that is delightful to see. And he's right, of course. ] I can't argue with you there.
And you've set things up quite nicely tonight, so attractive in more ways than one. [ Paying attention to little things is sexy as hell ]
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[Though the one advantage of immortality is when it comes to heirs, its less of a concern. It could be centuries before its even a thought to ponder. It had been centuries before his parents had him themselves.]
Ah, well. Yes. [He looks more bashful at that.] I'm aware the offer was a casual thing, but it felt callous to not at least have a nice evening of it. Especially when its a new experience. First impressions and all can apply to experiences, so its best to treat them like they're something special.
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I did say it pretty casually, didn't I. [ That's not a question, she knows she did. It was. Most of her partners are casual, after all. And then they set fire to a haunted house and he saved them both from emotional torture and she carried him back here and he made her food despite being exhausted and she let him bite her and she was watching her phone for days, waiting. ]
But this sure as hell isn't a casual dress. And I didn't race out nearly to the lava fields to grab those peppers on a whim. And I don't offer to go to everyone's world and help them with their troubles.
If you want casual, if that's what you're comfortable with, then okay. If that's all you think I could ever want, I know that's not true. But I also think that it's nothing that should be hashed out now... I just didn't want you believing I had my mind made up.
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[But his eating slows as she talks because a 'but' is the last thing he expects.]
[Until he pauses, food halfway raised, staring because that sure]
[Sounded like talking about something more than casual which is a thought he had refused to even ponder despite the rush of affection and fondness he'd been feeling.]
What.
[Sometimes eloquence evades even him.]
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I thought I was more clear the other day then I really was, I guess. But really, it's nothing to fret over now, or even discuss unless there's something you want to say about it.
[ She assumes he'll need time, who wouldn't? Most others don't jump in feet first to everything the way Saya does. She's never regretted doing what felt right, though, even when it blows up in her face, and she's not about to start here and now. ]
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[He lowers his chopsticks. Tapping the bottom of the bowl which is definitely not proper table manners, but his mind is racing and his hands hate to be idle. It keeps his mind from going completely off the rails with this information.]
[He knows there was fondness, of course, but the way she says that implies the potential for quite a bit more. He knows people could be friends and engage in such activities. What was the phrase? Friends with....was it benefits? Most likely, it seemed the right about of crass and subtle that humans preferred for such euphemisms.]
[He had assumed that was her intent, not for...more and that-]
[Hm]
[HM]
[The tapping stops. Its been a good two minutes.]
I...don't have anything to say right now.
Making quick emotional decisions is not my forte. I always need to think about them, because when I don't-
[He knows he defaults to rejection.]
[Rejection was easier.]
[But he doesn't want to do that with her.]
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[ What she is implying is potential, nothing more. She's great at casual, if that's where they land, and it won't change a thing about the way she behaves. But she doesn't want to land there because she didn't make a point to say it doesn't have to. It wouldn't be fair to anyone. ]
Sorry to keep catching you off-guard. Sooner or later I'll run out of surprises, promise.
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It will likely be some time. It turns out when you spend most of your centuries long life hyper focused on a project and not actually socializing, you find yourself caught off guard a fair amount.
And I imagine you catch people off guard who have properly socialized. Really, I should resign myself to at least one blind sided moment in all our interactions.
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I told you, my species has strong feelings about everything. At least I'm good with using words to explain them now.
Take all the time you like. I'm not frightened by a little patience. I'd rather cope with that then regrets. I don't have time for them, nor the desire to live with them if I had the time.
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Well, there's a reason mother has a time limit for me at parties.
So I try to have more care in the selection when I find myself fond of the other person.
[Which is vague, but he figures its enough to say that he is invested. That the relationship between them had some value to him, even if he wasn't sure what that ultimate value was.]
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I'm glad to hear it. I knew there was some measure of appreciation at least, no one's good enough in bed to be worth an abundance of annoyance. [ And he's not exactly shy with his anger or irritation, which is nice actually. People who make you guess what they're thinking are tiresome to her. ]
[ Saya finishes the last of her food and sets her chopsticks down across the bowl. ] That was delicious, thank you. [ This she says in Korean. ]
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I am glad you enjoyed it. [He replies before eating the last few bites of his own dish and standing up to take their dishes to the sink.]
There are a few other questions I wanted to ask before we...
Well, obviously my own preferences are up in the air, but I wanted to check if there was anything you don't want your partner doing? You mentioned before about being in charge?
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Ask me anything you like, of course.
What I don't like... you're not wrong that I tend to take charge more usually, though I don't mind more give and take with you. Instincts are what they are and I have an appreciation for yours when they flare up -- no pun intended. But being overtly submissive, I don't think I'd have that in me. Not for any extended time, anyway. [ Her temperament has smoothed out enough and she likes him enough that she'd forgive the attempt if he was piqued, but forcing the issue would insult her and risk her high temper. ]
[ She also doesn't want anything demeaning of course, but she presumes he wouldn't either. He seems to deeply not see her that way. ]
Nothing else is springing to mind. I'm willing to try most anything, see what works. It's a bit different for everyone. [ Other than the constant of her dominance thing (well... nearly constant), she tends not to have a set list, it depends on the partner. What's great with one will fall flat with another. This makes it difficult to give him a map to follow, but it does allow her to be fully present and invested in establishing a unique relationship with each of her partners. ]
As you know, I'm not very subtle. So you'll know when you're on the right track. And I'm good at diverting any slight misstep before it kills the mood.
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That is good to know. It can be easy for me to get caught up in being domineering, knowing there is a limit is good. [It keeps him paying attention to the signals and figure out what the limit is without needing to be told off too much to be annoying.]
[He does nod as she continues and his own face heats up as he keeps his eyes pointed to the sink.] I enjoyed what we did before. I don't really know what could be a no for the most part from the lack of experience, but I will be clear if I don't like something.
But...I don't mind you directing me with a hand on my neck, but don't use a grip that would restrict air flow. I can't suffocate, don't worry otherwise. And no collars at any point in the future.
And of course water is a no go. Sorry, there will be no round two in the shower, I get in and out as fast as hygienically possible.
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