[This absolutely is something he wouldn't share with just anyone. He hasn't even told Izuku about this.. but the kid's so amazed by Katsuki that he can't break the illusion for him.]
Oh, I know I'm great. There's just days sometimes where I feel like the biggest loser on the planet, but I don't let other people know that. I want people to think that I'm fucking crazy and I've got all the confidence in my own abilities at all times.
I'm someone my friends rely on. I'm one of the people that, when they see me arrive, they all feel relieved and like we're going to win. I like that. I want to stay that person.
[ She gets what he's saying. Fake it 'till you make it. Trouble is, she's not that person, and soon enough she'll start losing her faculties so any sort of faking might not be possible. And her sour moods don't stem from feeling underconfident, they stem from being a walking war crime. But it won't help anything to tell Katsuki that. ]
It takes a strong person to do that. [ And Saya's not sure she's that sort of strong. ]
[It's a bittersweet conversation, that's for sure. And Katsuki can tell a bit from her reply that Saya's feeling a little effected by it. So, he decides now is a good time for a subject change.]
And a lot of practice.
But, you know, I originally wanted to thank you for talking some sense into me. Even though my nose still hurts like a son of a bitch, we're both... a lot happier.
[ Bless him for the subject change. There's only so much she can put on a good face, even over text. His advice works for him and she's glad of it, but she's not sure she can manage it. ]
You had plenty of sense. You just had to find it underneath all the other stuff. I'm glad I could help.
No, I really needed you to talk to me when you did. Otherwise I'd still be in that hotel room right now instead of laying here with the nerd using me as a pillow.
I have unique experience in that area, at least it was good for something.
A little grossness is worth it, I'm sure. It shows he's comfortable with you. [ If she can drink her partners' blood you can handle a little drool, take it like a man! ]
Yeah, yeah. He's TOO comfortable with me. Always has been. But that's why he's the only person I'm comfortable with in this kind of way in the first place so I guess it worked out for him.
It worked out for both of you. [ At least it's one good thing she managed to do. Nothing when weighed against the whole pile of bad, but it's something. ]
I'm glad he has you to take care of him. And to drool on. [ snicker ]
As gross as it is... me too. He's been through a lot, and he needs my support now more than ever.
I don't know if you know this, but he was born without a Quirk. And only within the last couple of years was he given one, and it was so he could be a Hero who could help save the world... pretty much. He was suddenly given the biggest burden to bear on his shoulders.
That's a lot to put on a kid. And sometimes he works too hard, and doesn't think to take care of himself because of it. He always feels like he has years and years to catch up to everyone else, so he pushes himself too much. He puts himself down too much.
At least I can force some food down his throat and make him take a shower if he ends up forgetting to.
[ The way they talk about each other is really wonderful. Kind and caring and a little idealistic and everything it should be. ]
I'll do my best to watch out for him, too. If I see him a little off-kilter I'll send him your way for some rest and care. [ The least she can do with the short time she has is help others. ]
Of course. He's my friend too, so it's the least I can do.
When we get back to training, maybe bring him sometime. Either to spar or to watch. We can have a big breakfast after. [ Since she usually trains in the mornings. She'll bribe someone into making a huge meal. ]
It's not like I'm an expert at it or anything. But.. he has no idea I've even been practicing. So he'll probably freak out even if I can't do that much with it yet.
Your fighting prowess and telekinetic abilities are not why he feels the way he does for you, so nothing I could do would show you up in his eyes. You're the one he relies on and sees above anyone else. And you're a Hero, which is something I could never be.
Then get to work on it. What would you think of me if I were the type to reduce myself for something like that? [ He'd lose all respect for her and he'd be right to. ]
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It'll take some practice to get my heart off my sleeve, but I've got nothing to lose.
For whatever it's worth, I think you're great. Even when you might not feel that way.
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Oh, I know I'm great. There's just days sometimes where I feel like the biggest loser on the planet, but I don't let other people know that. I want people to think that I'm fucking crazy and I've got all the confidence in my own abilities at all times.
I'm someone my friends rely on. I'm one of the people that, when they see me arrive, they all feel relieved and like we're going to win. I like that. I want to stay that person.
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It takes a strong person to do that. [ And Saya's not sure she's that sort of strong. ]
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And a lot of practice.
But, you know, I originally wanted to thank you for talking some sense into me. Even though my nose still hurts like a son of a bitch, we're both... a lot happier.
It's still weird, but I like it.
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You had plenty of sense. You just had to find it underneath all the other stuff. I'm glad I could help.
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It's gross by the way. He's a drooler.
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I have unique experience in that area, at least it was good for something.
A little grossness is worth it, I'm sure. It shows he's comfortable with you. [ If she can drink her partners' blood you can handle a little drool, take it like a man! ]
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Yeah, yeah. He's TOO comfortable with me. Always has been. But that's why he's the only person I'm comfortable with in this kind of way in the first place so I guess it worked out for him.
He's so lucky to have me.
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I'm glad he has you to take care of him. And to drool on. [ snicker ]
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I don't know if you know this, but he was born without a Quirk. And only within the last couple of years was he given one, and it was so he could be a Hero who could help save the world... pretty much. He was suddenly given the biggest burden to bear on his shoulders.
That's a lot to put on a kid. And sometimes he works too hard, and doesn't think to take care of himself because of it. He always feels like he has years and years to catch up to everyone else, so he pushes himself too much. He puts himself down too much.
At least I can force some food down his throat and make him take a shower if he ends up forgetting to.
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I'll do my best to watch out for him, too. If I see him a little off-kilter I'll send him your way for some rest and care. [ The least she can do with the short time she has is help others. ]
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Thank you. Seriously, I mean it.
The more eyes on him the better.
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When we get back to training, maybe bring him sometime. Either to spar or to watch. We can have a big breakfast after. [ Since she usually trains in the mornings. She'll bribe someone into making a huge meal. ]
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And you can show off your work with telekinesis. I know you wanted him to see it.
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He'll definitely be impressed.
[ Saya's better with it, but her species has telepathic abilities so she had a leg up. ]
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[ tease tease ]
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Your fighting prowess and telekinetic abilities are not why he feels the way he does for you, so nothing I could do would show you up in his eyes. You're the one he relies on and sees above anyone else. And you're a Hero, which is something I could never be.
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I still want my telekinesis to look cooler than yours.
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Then get to work on it. What would you think of me if I were the type to reduce myself for something like that? [ He'd lose all respect for her and he'd be right to. ]
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