[ Saya breathes for a second and tries to focus past the fear. She concentrates on him, every place they're touching, how much she trusts him. ]
[ But she keeps seeing images of herself slaughtering innocent people, cutting and clawing her way through a room of people she loves who were all ready for it, all extremely powerful in their own right. This feels like tempting fate. ]
I do trust you. Even so, it's hard to sign up for my worst nightmare.
You're better at resisting me than most, that's why you mind it less. I suspect if I tried to wrap you around my little finger, it would end up rather the opposite.
[ She smiles sweetly, gives him a sweeter kiss. ] Not that I'd mind.
If I started listing everything I like about you we'd be here all night. There's a reason I couldn't accept Red Son's boundaries.
...Which are gone now, by the way. All of them. [ Biting and drinking his blood, even. Which she might be tempted towards by the way she leans forward and nuzzles into his neck. ]
I'm not trying to wrangle you, though. Why would I want to do that? I said I accept you as you are, I meant it. Even if it means I have to chase and never quite catch you.
I'm glad. Our history shouldn't be your restriction. [He tilts his head, completely relaxed and content.] I'm sensing some temptation on your part.
And you wouldn't. But if you did wrap me around your little finger, I'd be pretty much wrangled. You might not catch me, but I'll eventually come to you.
[ A low hum which substitutes for a chuckle ] You're picking up on my extremely subtle cues? Well, that's a relief.
--I'm not in any rush. The temptation is always there. [ And she knows he's not been in the best place, and isn't sure if her biting would help or hurt. ]
Oh, is that how it works? Wait patiently with a peach in my hand until you venture over? Patience isn't so much my strong suit, it takes something extremely worth my wait...
[ She kisses his neck just idly, as if she's thinking it over. She's never going to be tired of how his fur feels. ]
Ah, right. I stand corrected. Or lay corrected. [ Since they're very much not standing. ]
[ She does shake her head, gently. ] It's less self-care now than cravings. The cure kept me awake but messed with my bloodthirst a bit. Completely worth it, but it does mean that blood like yours is going to make me want more of it. It'll keep. [ She doesn't want to even almost get pushy in a way he's not ready for if he's not prepared to be a regular donor, and he's too emotionally wrung out to be making that call. ]
[ She does chuckle at the bat thing. ] I see you're as subtle as I am, lucky for you I'm especially cunning and I've deciphered the complicated puzzle of your meaning.
[ She pulls back and does a move like she's curling up and out pops a fuzzy silver bat. She cheeps at him and her red eyes seem to be smiling. ]
[ He should ask her sometime when no one is a mess, if such a thing ever occurs. Right now it feels like she'd be trapping him in something. Saya tends to be careful about this, is all. She has plenty of very willing donors, granted none of them have blood like his, but she's hardly desperate. ]
[ She has to use the hands on her wings and her feet to sort of hop closer, but she manages, and folds her wings to rest against him. ]
< And what am I usually since I'm not adorable, hm? > [ her telepathic "tone" is clearly joking. ]
[ Her big ears flick around in a sort of telescopic motion and she makes some cute chirping noises. ]
< Okay, that's a good answer. Mild indignation withdrawn. >
< You should have seen me during the maid cafe. I kept having to change clothes since I was taking requests in my usual form and my male form and sometimes my natural form too, but it was worth it. >
< We made the money we needed to make to fund Yuri's guild. And it was nostalgic. Where we all came from those things were a regular occurrence when one unit or another wanted to buy something. >
< Yuri even threw one for me, once. A surprise party to earn cash for a room upgrade. If you only knew how I hated that being sprung on me. I don't mind performing or whatever, but being the center of attention in that way... I'd have smacked him around if it wasn't so sweet. >
< We got brought here before the upgrade went through, but that's why I got the hot springs at my place. That's one of the things I wanted. It was going to be a volcanic beach with a hot springs heated by the volcano itself, with a hunting game in the surrounding jungle for when my instincts kicked up. Cost a fortune, too. >
[ She makes a calling chirp in the same pitch which sort of vibrates since her chirps are echolocation things usually. ]
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[He presses his forehead to hers.]
You're the first line of defense so we work on beefing that up. The rest of us are your safety net. So that's your focus. Leave the if-then to us.
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[ But she keeps seeing images of herself slaughtering innocent people, cutting and clawing her way through a room of people she loves who were all ready for it, all extremely powerful in their own right. This feels like tempting fate. ]
I do trust you. Even so, it's hard to sign up for my worst nightmare.
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[He purrs quietly, watching her eyes. His are nearly back to being cheerful for the first time in awhile.]
It's not an overnight change to get over a fear like this. But you're not dealing alone.
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Watch yourself, if you keep giving me hope then I'll be even more of an emotional terrorist, and then where will you be?
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[That's what he's been waiting for.]
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[ She smiles sweetly, gives him a sweeter kiss. ] Not that I'd mind.
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[He kisses her back and relaxes back with a smile.]
But I like to think I'm rather hard to wrangle.
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...Which are gone now, by the way. All of them. [ Biting and drinking his blood, even. Which she might be tempted towards by the way she leans forward and nuzzles into his neck. ]
I'm not trying to wrangle you, though. Why would I want to do that? I said I accept you as you are, I meant it. Even if it means I have to chase and never quite catch you.
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And you wouldn't. But if you did wrap me around your little finger, I'd be pretty much wrangled. You might not catch me, but I'll eventually come to you.
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--I'm not in any rush. The temptation is always there. [ And she knows he's not been in the best place, and isn't sure if her biting would help or hurt. ]
Oh, is that how it works? Wait patiently with a peach in my hand until you venture over? Patience isn't so much my strong suit, it takes something extremely worth my wait...
[ She kisses his neck just idly, as if she's thinking it over. She's never going to be tired of how his fur feels. ]
Luckily, you are.
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[He smiles though, genuinely touched by the consideration.]
It's not a rush. I may not be ready for more yet, but I'm open to this since we've already done it for self-care.
[Okay that makes him laugh, just the mental image of Saya in the middle of the forest with a peach and waiting patiently.]
Or you could just be a fluffy adorable bat. Debatable which would work faster though.
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[ She does shake her head, gently. ] It's less self-care now than cravings. The cure kept me awake but messed with my bloodthirst a bit. Completely worth it, but it does mean that blood like yours is going to make me want more of it. It'll keep. [ She doesn't want to even almost get pushy in a way he's not ready for if he's not prepared to be a regular donor, and he's too emotionally wrung out to be making that call. ]
[ She does chuckle at the bat thing. ] I see you're as subtle as I am, lucky for you I'm especially cunning and I've deciphered the complicated puzzle of your meaning.
[ She pulls back and does a move like she's curling up and out pops a fuzzy silver bat. She cheeps at him and her red eyes seem to be smiling. ]
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[He grins wider when she transforms, stroking her fur happily.]
I didn't mean right now, but I'm not going to say no to this. Probably ever. You really are just too darn adorable like this!
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[ She has to use the hands on her wings and her feet to sort of hop closer, but she manages, and folds her wings to rest against him. ]
< And what am I usually since I'm not adorable, hm? > [ her telepathic "tone" is clearly joking. ]
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[He'll ask if it occurs to him. Right now though, she's a comfort and he rubs between her little ears.]
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< Okay, that's a good answer. Mild indignation withdrawn. >
< You should have seen me during the maid cafe. I kept having to change clothes since I was taking requests in my usual form and my male form and sometimes my natural form too, but it was worth it. >
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[He chirps back, just because he can.]
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< Yuri even threw one for me, once. A surprise party to earn cash for a room upgrade. If you only knew how I hated that being sprung on me. I don't mind performing or whatever, but being the center of attention in that way... I'd have smacked him around if it wasn't so sweet. >
< We got brought here before the upgrade went through, but that's why I got the hot springs at my place. That's one of the things I wanted. It was going to be a volcanic beach with a hot springs heated by the volcano itself, with a hunting game in the surrounding jungle for when my instincts kicked up. Cost a fortune, too. >
[ She makes a calling chirp in the same pitch which sort of vibrates since her chirps are echolocation things usually. ]