[ She loops her arm through his, very grateful that he at least gets it. Between Lupine and Doctor, that's at least two people who don't judge her over it. She'll have to tell Venti eventually, but he's always supported her, even when she was being a nutcase. ]
I don't know if I'll make it that long. I could fall asleep and wake up in a few decades, long after you've all moved on. But I guess I wouldn't remember anyone anyway, in that case.
-- Which is a real racket when you think about it. Production can just keep recycling me for eternity and each time I'll have even more memories to buy back. Jackasses.
[ She glances up, did that work to lighten the mood any? ]
Maybe next time I'll end up in one of the magic weapons units. What I could do with infinite blades from nowhere.
[ She nuzzles her cheek against his shoulder, then sits up and gives him a little smile. ]
Thanks. I would have understood if you... you know. [ If he took big exception or got angry with her or decided he didn't want to bother with someone who's just going to hurt him in the end. ]
Heh. I'm sure you'd have fun with them. Valor definitely did.
[ He was going to stroke her hair, but he lets her withdraw, if... maybe noticeably reluctantly. Look, he's okay as long as people are within arm's reach, but physical contact is definitely Better. ]
If I... what?
[ Not being deliberately obtuse. His gaze holds her face for a few seconds before he murmurs, ]
I'm not saying I'm thrilled about it. Might even say I think it'd be a net loss. If you hadn't already been alive for — what, hundreds of years?
5,000 if you count sleeping time and believe the profile. Still less time than Venti, as he constantly reminds me.
[ "Constantly" is a bit strong but whatever. ]
I wouldn't mind living, if there was a way to make up for what I did and make sure nothing like that would happen again, but there isn't. To get that to happen they'd have to rearrange so much of my head that I wouldn't be the same person anyway.
Well, if it's all the same to you I'd rather be able to stand my own company slightly more.
[ When the tinder is arranged she pulls out a match and uses a fingernail to light it. Nothing too it if you're strong enough. She sets alight a small branch with some dried leaves on the end and will light the rest of the firewood once he's out of the way. ]
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[ She loops her arm through his, very grateful that he at least gets it. Between Lupine and Doctor, that's at least two people who don't judge her over it. She'll have to tell Venti eventually, but he's always supported her, even when she was being a nutcase. ]
I don't know if I'll make it that long. I could fall asleep and wake up in a few decades, long after you've all moved on. But I guess I wouldn't remember anyone anyway, in that case.
-- Which is a real racket when you think about it. Production can just keep recycling me for eternity and each time I'll have even more memories to buy back. Jackasses.
[ She glances up, did that work to lighten the mood any? ]
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Their best 'idol' ever.
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[ She nuzzles her cheek against his shoulder, then sits up and gives him a little smile. ]
Thanks. I would have understood if you... you know. [ If he took big exception or got angry with her or decided he didn't want to bother with someone who's just going to hurt him in the end. ]
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[ He was going to stroke her hair, but he lets her withdraw, if... maybe noticeably reluctantly.
Look, he's okay as long as people are within arm's reach, but physical contact is definitely Better.]If I... what?
[ Not being deliberately obtuse. His gaze holds her face for a few seconds before he murmurs, ]
I'm not saying I'm thrilled about it. Might even say I think it'd be a net loss. If you hadn't already been alive for — what, hundreds of years?
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[ His smile is sad, but. ]
I'd be pretty tired of existing, too.
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[ "Constantly" is a bit strong but whatever. ]
I wouldn't mind living, if there was a way to make up for what I did and make sure nothing like that would happen again, but there isn't. To get that to happen they'd have to rearrange so much of my head that I wouldn't be the same person anyway.
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Well... supposedly the wish can be anything, so. Hope you don't mind if I cross my fingers for you figuring something else out before you graduate.
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Crossed fingers, that's all.
[ This is probably enough firewood??? Gonna get the fire started now. ]
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I didn't mean that I think you'll be a bother. I just don't want to have to think about it all the time, I'd be awful to be around.
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[ The tinder helps, for sure. ]
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[ When the tinder is arranged she pulls out a match and uses a fingernail to light it. Nothing too it if you're strong enough. She sets alight a small branch with some dried leaves on the end and will light the rest of the firewood once he's out of the way. ]
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[ As if that's remotely what you just said. ]
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There, once this fire gets going it should be hot enough for me to butcher some food item or another.
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[ Droll. ]
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You're something all right.
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Tailswish.]Hopefully something that's at least partially good.