Mmm. I don't think there's a right and wrong when it comes to things like that. There's a 'would Nem have wanted to know', and there's a 'does Zari want one last memory of someone she cared about where nobody's crying', and probably a few other considerations.
[ Beat. ]
I didn't know Nem as well as you did. If it were me? I might be kind of pissed later. But — I'd get why you'd done it, too. And really, if there was anything I regretted not saying to you... well, that'd be on me, because I would've already known I was probably saying goodbye forever.
[ She rests a hand over his, grateful amidst everything else. ]
I wish I knew.
[ She's only just learning how to do any of this, and soon it'll be taken away. A few months isn't enough -- but evidently it's all she has. So her free hand reaches up to wipe at her cheeks to try and get herself under some semblance of control. ]
I'm sorry, I didn't want to do this. I should be stronger by now.
[ Normally there'd be a useless debate over what's strong and what isn't, insistence that she's not the only one who's lost people so handing her burdens over for others to shoulder is cruel and unfair, the usual. ]
[ She doesn't have it in her. So with another murmured, automatic apology, she only sobs for a few minutes. One of these days she'll get it together. Ideally before she forgets her entire life and everyone in it. ]
[ Soon enough she starts calming down, and can't think of a single thing to say. So he's stuck breaking the sniffling silence. ]
[ Her tears subsiding at least, she slowly nods. ]
I know. [ Better to have loved and lost and all that. ] And I don't think I could stop if I tried anyway.
Thanks. [ She feels absolutely wretched at this moment, and also probably needed that. Leaning back against him still, her arms folded over his because she doesn't want him to let go quite yet. ]
[ Rather than try to say something mushy that's just going to embarrass him, the last thing she wants after he was so understanding of her going off the deep end, she wipes her face dry and leans forward over the handlebars again. ]
[ She's not quite sure why anyone wouldn't want to ride this thing off the map, but it doesn't bother her either way. On goes the bike with a loud growl! ]
[ Off they go as the engine roars, in search of somewhere nice to pull over. As soon as she spots a nice view of the water, she turns the bike East and heads for it, coming to a stop quickly enough. ]
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Something like that.
...Was I wrong? Not to tell her when we were saying goodbye?
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[ Beat. ]
I didn't know Nem as well as you did. If it were me? I might be kind of pissed later. But — I'd get why you'd done it, too. And really, if there was anything I regretted not saying to you... well, that'd be on me, because I would've already known I was probably saying goodbye forever.
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No matter what I do, I hurt people. I always hurt people.
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Heh. That part's very much a... 'welcome to the human experience' thing, I'm pretty sure.
[ Even though she doesn't mean just like this. Squeeze. ]
The trick is that it's still worth it.
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I wish I knew.
[ She's only just learning how to do any of this, and soon it'll be taken away. A few months isn't enough -- but evidently it's all she has. So her free hand reaches up to wipe at her cheeks to try and get herself under some semblance of control. ]
I'm sorry, I didn't want to do this. I should be stronger by now.
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[ Very soft, squeezing her again. ]
'Strong' has nothing to do with it. It's not weak to care about other people. It's not weak to cry.
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[ She doesn't have it in her. So with another murmured, automatic apology, she only sobs for a few minutes. One of these days she'll get it together. Ideally before she forgets her entire life and everyone in it. ]
[ Soon enough she starts calming down, and can't think of a single thing to say. So he's stuck breaking the sniffling silence. ]
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Eventually, in a murmur, ]
If we stop caring about each other, this place'll really be hell.
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I know. [ Better to have loved and lost and all that. ] And I don't think I could stop if I tried anyway.
Thanks. [ She feels absolutely wretched at this moment, and also probably needed that. Leaning back against him still, her arms folded over his because she doesn't want him to let go quite yet. ]
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Heh. Anytime? If that's not too crappy to say.
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Having someone to lean on at least makes it more bearable.
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Just bearable, huh? Sounds like I really need to up my game.
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You're impossible.
[ She appreciates impossible! ]
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I mean, I'm just gonna take that as a compliment.
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[ Rather than try to say something mushy that's just going to embarrass him, the last thing she wants after he was so understanding of her going off the deep end, she wipes her face dry and leans forward over the handlebars again. ]
Should we get going?
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If you wanna. Or we could pull over...
I'm good with anything.
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[ She's not quite sure why anyone wouldn't want to ride this thing off the map, but it doesn't bother her either way. On goes the bike with a loud growl! ]
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Like I said, I'm good with anything.
[ Just... wants to have a good time with her. To facilitate her having a good time. ]
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[ Off they go as the engine roars, in search of somewhere nice to pull over. As soon as she spots a nice view of the water, she turns the bike East and heads for it, coming to a stop quickly enough. ]
This okay?
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[ Let's go ahead and say the words out loud. Every now and then, his tsun doesn't completely murder him over stuff like this. ]