People find all sorts of reasons that what I want or feel isn't valid. Either it's not valid because I'm basing it on what someone I love said they want, like I'm not supposed to care about what my romantic partners want, or it's because I don't know what's best for myself -- I mean I sometimes don't, but that doesn't give anyone the right to go over my head -- or they're determined to save me or whatever. Nothing patronizing about a shove toward the self-actualization they've decided is best for me without my consent or consultation.
Or they'll say they respect what I want and then in the same breath try to talk me out of it. That's a favorite lately.
I honestly just... there are moments I hope this next attempt puts me under so I don't have to hear it anymore.
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Date: Aug. 1st, 2023 10:44 pm (UTC)People find all sorts of reasons that what I want or feel isn't valid. Either it's not valid because I'm basing it on what someone I love said they want, like I'm not supposed to care about what my romantic partners want, or it's because I don't know what's best for myself -- I mean I sometimes don't, but that doesn't give anyone the right to go over my head -- or they're determined to save me or whatever. Nothing patronizing about a shove toward the self-actualization they've decided is best for me without my consent or consultation.
Or they'll say they respect what I want and then in the same breath try to talk me out of it. That's a favorite lately.
I honestly just... there are moments I hope this next attempt puts me under so I don't have to hear it anymore.