It doesn't matter if it was my fault or wasn't, he got hurt. Weremonkey expresses things MK can't or won't, and he was miserable. You where miserable. How could that not effect me?
And he wanted you to himself. It was obvious. That's how he'd feel if he let himself. I'm in the way of that.
I couldn't possibly give you up, it's unthinkable. But that means he's giving up something he wants. It hurts me to think of how I've hurt him and how I'm still hurting him. I should want my friend to be happy but here I am in the way of it and refusing to budge.
It's difficult to reconcile. That's all. At least I know if I encourage you to be with him then you're both happy.
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Re: Amnesiakong start day
Date: Dec. 16th, 2023 08:05 pm (UTC)And he wanted you to himself. It was obvious. That's how he'd feel if he let himself. I'm in the way of that.
I couldn't possibly give you up, it's unthinkable. But that means he's giving up something he wants. It hurts me to think of how I've hurt him and how I'm still hurting him. I should want my friend to be happy but here I am in the way of it and refusing to budge.
It's difficult to reconcile. That's all. At least I know if I encourage you to be with him then you're both happy.