Dragging him back isn't going to do anything but hurt us both. Why would I want to cause him more pain than I already am? [ It's not going over great, no. ]
...Thank you, though. There has to be something. [ Just a twinge extremely desperate yep ]
I mean, you'd have to ask him. [ Maybe he tried, but she missed it because emotions were running so high? Maybe because the tag hadn't been written yet and RP is a cruel mistress. ] But when we talked, he didn't really seem willing to give himself much credit for that part.
If he runs, I'm not entirely sure what I'll feel. I want to say of course I'd forgive a momentary weakness, because I really do understand. I've always said this is harder on everyone I love than on me.
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I understand why he might have to leave me, and I don't blame him, but not knowing is awful. I couldn't bear to force the issue, though.
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He doesn't want to leave you. He's just afraid he might... [ Trails off, then just says it: ] Freak out.
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[ She doesn't want to compare the two, but here she is doing it. It's unavoidable. ]
I know it happened a while ago, but I just remembered losing the man I loved for two centuries. The thought of it happening again...
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You aren't going to lose him.
[ With, perhaps, surprising confidence? ]
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[ She's not going to listen to reassurances right now. But what she would listen to -- ]
We've got to find a way to stop it from happening. Please help me stop it.
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[ Because his player is not willing to let that go unsaid, for all that it MIGHT not go over great. ]
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[ Like he said, right? New world, new rules. They'll find something. ]
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...Thank you, though. There has to be something. [ Just a twinge extremely desperate yep ]
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You wouldn't be causing him more pain. Because he doesn't want to leave you. He's only afraid he'll have a moment of stupid weakness and run away.
He made me promise to drag him back.
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He did? Then why did he not tell me that?
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I mean, you'd have to ask him. [ Maybe he tried, but she missed it because emotions were running so high?
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If he runs, I'm not entirely sure what I'll feel. I want to say of course I'd forgive a momentary weakness, because I really do understand. I've always said this is harder on everyone I love than on me.
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I don't think it'll have anything to do with you, if he does.
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You know how badly I can take it when people hurt me. How my temper gets.
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I don't want him to be in pain. If being around me hurt him, I should let him go. Not be selfish for once in my life.
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This sucks.
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Excuse me?
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Having to watch someone you love fade away and then decades later smile in their face when they don't remember you is -- cruel.
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That's why no one's asking him to do it alone. We'll all be there with him. And we'll help you remember him.
[ Literally, in Venti's case, but, ]
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...I know you're trying to make me feel better, but I don't see it working right now. Maybe sometime it will. Thank you for trying, though.
[ This situation just feeds into all her fears, all her shame, all her doubt. There's no talking her out of it. ]
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[ Especially when it didn't work. ]
Anytime you wanna talk...
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