"It's always hard. And I get why it's so hard for you since that's how it would go all the other times. It's like learning a whole new thing that is all unknown for you. Sounds scary on top of difficult."
"Especially when I have a habit of making everything I touch worse." From her perspective, at least.
"It was naive to think that Red Son giving me a shot of medicine would fix this. I have to fix it. And I'm still wavering on whether I want to. I told you that I'll try and I will, but that's my honest feeling."
"Did it make it better at all after? The shot. I remember me and Monkey King sitting with you and you didn't go crazy or anything so there was that but did it help at all? I'm just wondering if maybe, it did, a few more might be a help for you to work on fixing it. Like a boost?"
"I thought it did. But it was just euphoria because I thought my troubles were more or less over. But once that wore off I was left with this." She gestures at her sorry state. "It did prevent me from sleeping, so it was still worth doing."
"Not really. I go to work and plaster on a smile because it's my job, which is exhausting. Then I come home and sulk. I haven't even been feeding properly, I've been using Red Son's blood bags in IV form."
Not feeding isn't a good sign at all. And it's probably driving her husband and mate bonkers.
"Not feeding doesn't sound good. And can you take a vacation from work for a month? Maybe you should try to take some time to feed a little. The normal bitey way and not the IV form way?"
"I guess I could. But right now it's the only reason I've been leaving the house." She's not sure it's a good idea to stop doing it.
"I don't know about feeding. Getting my memories back has made me a lot more averse to it. I miss it, but at the same time I used to be disgusted by it so getting the memories back has that feeling churning up." She's not really sure what to do with it all.
"Alright. Um...oh. Then take a vacation from your job and come work at the Dealer's Den for a month. You can be in the back or you can be up front but people aren't going to be grabbing you and hounding you there. It'll be easier."
The feeding part though...
"I mean, you do need to eat though. But I get it. Maybe instead of it being all uh hospital like, you could instead ask them to like put it in a glass? Make it like half and half? And you'll get to spend time with them too."
"At your bar? I don't know if my boss will let me work for a competitor. I can ask, though. If I'm not bartending and not public facing they'll probably mind less."
"I can talk to them and see what we want to do. It's probably better if I just bite the bullet, pun intended. Maybe if I just do it I'll remember why I liked it."
"Yeah. I always need help with like the backroom stuff. Accounting and math and all that. Plus you can help me plan some theme nights. Max is coming up with some fun music stuff and I know you love music. I bet he'd love your input," MK said with a happier tone.
"Heh. I like that pun. I think that's a really good idea. And they'll be there for you if you get nervous or the bad all mixed with the good in the wrong way."
"You mean Macaque's friend Max?" That's the only context through which she knows Max, so.
"Let me ask, and I'll let you know. But I'm not really sure how working for you would be any different than going to my job as normal, in terms of helping me." She gets paid a fortune at her job so it's tempting to just stick it out.
"I'll try that, I guess. I can imagine Kantera and Red Son aren't delighted with me taking IVs." So aat least some biting will make them happy, if nothing else.
"If he has two different color eyes and sharp teeth? Yes," MK nods. He can't keep track of all of Macaque's friends really.
"Thanks. I figure if you get out but don't have to interact with a bunch of strangers, it might help with both getting out and not going home all exhausted. That's all. You got a plan now. That's more than you had before."
"That's the guy. I served them a few bottles of our best scotch not long ago." For free, naturally.
"I guess being less tired would be a benefit. I'll think on it and let you know. As far as a plan..." She hesitates. "I don't want to get your hopes up. How I'm acting now is pretty much how I was for several hundred years on my world of origin, and it's how I was on two other worlds I got brought to before Imeeji. It took a lot for me to smile. I was very different than the person I was when you met me, and now I have back all the memories that tell me why. It might take a while for me to find a balance."
"You're trying and that's all I'm asking for. And hey. You can take however long you need to find the balance. It's you being open to the idea that is making me smile right now. That's a lot more than what you were saying when I got here."
The MK clone puts the fresh warm tea on the table and pours them each a cup before he poofs.
"I don't know what it was specifically, but you made me want to try harder. Maybe it's because it was your heart game that partially messed me up. Maybe I'm just ready. I don't know.
"You're welcome," MK will hug her if she cries. Sometimes just crying your heart out can help you feel better. Even if it gives you a headache, hiccups, and the runniest nose ever.
"Well the bar is going well. I've been putting a lot of work into it and the apartment above it. Macaque and I broke up for a day a bit ago. We're already back together. It was because I messed up but it's alright now. I got another new boyfriend who is a talking cat boy named Dick. He's really fun. And that's about it? Yeah. That's about it."
She's holding it back. She's done enough whining and crying by her estimation.
"Oh yeah? What kind of work are you doing?"
She blinks at the breakup line. "What makes you so sure it was your fault that you broke up? And good for you, about the cat boy. I can imagine the fur is fun to pet."
"Making sure to expand it and I'm looking to add more entertainment to the bar. And upstairs, I'm making rooms for each of my mates and my boyfriend. So they have their own space in my apartment and they can spend the night whenever they want," MK answers.
"I asked someone out without thinking of how it would make Macaque feel. I should have asked first but we did talk it out and only broke up for a day. I didn't think about it really. I mean, part of it is I didn't really know it would be an issue."
"Yeah? Those rooms sound fun. Like a special gift for each of them." She knows the power of having a special space for your loved ones.
"If you didn't have a habit of asking before you went out with people, and you had no idea it would be an issue, you should probably give yourself a break on it. Sometimes things just happen that put us at odds with what the people we love want, and sometimes we just deal with it as best we can in the moment. It sounds like everything is fixed now, so..."
"That's what I was thinking too when I made them." MK wants that. And he is sure it's going to feel good when they are all done.
"That makes sense. It does. My brain keeps telling me though I should have thought of it. I'll try to give me a break. Still feels like I stepped in it. But I know better now. I know better for next time."
"I think you should give you a break. It was an honest mistake, that happens. Having multiple partners is all about communication and boy is it easier said than done sometimes."
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"It was naive to think that Red Son giving me a shot of medicine would fix this. I have to fix it. And I'm still wavering on whether I want to. I told you that I'll try and I will, but that's my honest feeling."
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Not feeding isn't a good sign at all. And it's probably driving her husband and mate bonkers.
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"I don't know about feeding. Getting my memories back has made me a lot more averse to it. I miss it, but at the same time I used to be disgusted by it so getting the memories back has that feeling churning up." She's not really sure what to do with it all.
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The feeding part though...
"I mean, you do need to eat though. But I get it. Maybe instead of it being all uh hospital like, you could instead ask them to like put it in a glass? Make it like half and half? And you'll get to spend time with them too."
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"I can talk to them and see what we want to do. It's probably better if I just bite the bullet, pun intended. Maybe if I just do it I'll remember why I liked it."
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"Heh. I like that pun. I think that's a really good idea. And they'll be there for you if you get nervous or the bad all mixed with the good in the wrong way."
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"Let me ask, and I'll let you know. But I'm not really sure how working for you would be any different than going to my job as normal, in terms of helping me." She gets paid a fortune at her job so it's tempting to just stick it out.
"I'll try that, I guess. I can imagine Kantera and Red Son aren't delighted with me taking IVs." So aat least some biting will make them happy, if nothing else.
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"Thanks. I figure if you get out but don't have to interact with a bunch of strangers, it might help with both getting out and not going home all exhausted. That's all. You got a plan now. That's more than you had before."
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"I guess being less tired would be a benefit. I'll think on it and let you know. As far as a plan..." She hesitates. "I don't want to get your hopes up. How I'm acting now is pretty much how I was for several hundred years on my world of origin, and it's how I was on two other worlds I got brought to before Imeeji. It took a lot for me to smile. I was very different than the person I was when you met me, and now I have back all the memories that tell me why. It might take a while for me to find a balance."
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The MK clone puts the fresh warm tea on the table and pours them each a cup before he poofs.
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"I haven't been a very good friend lately. So... how are things with you?"
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"Well the bar is going well. I've been putting a lot of work into it and the apartment above it. Macaque and I broke up for a day a bit ago. We're already back together. It was because I messed up but it's alright now. I got another new boyfriend who is a talking cat boy named Dick. He's really fun. And that's about it? Yeah. That's about it."
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"Oh yeah? What kind of work are you doing?"
She blinks at the breakup line. "What makes you so sure it was your fault that you broke up? And good for you, about the cat boy. I can imagine the fur is fun to pet."
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"I asked someone out without thinking of how it would make Macaque feel. I should have asked first but we did talk it out and only broke up for a day. I didn't think about it really. I mean, part of it is I didn't really know it would be an issue."
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"If you didn't have a habit of asking before you went out with people, and you had no idea it would be an issue, you should probably give yourself a break on it. Sometimes things just happen that put us at odds with what the people we love want, and sometimes we just deal with it as best we can in the moment. It sounds like everything is fixed now, so..."
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"That makes sense. It does. My brain keeps telling me though I should have thought of it. I'll try to give me a break. Still feels like I stepped in it. But I know better now. I know better for next time."
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