Doctor got all his memories back. And because of something in his past, he's not sure whether he'll be able to stay with me as I get closer to my hibernation.
...I understand, and I don't blame him, but... [ obviously it broke her heart. ]
[ She'd successfully managed not to shed any tears until Venti hugs her, and even then it's only a few. Saya can guess that if she falls apart entirely it'll be too difficult for anyone to put her back as she was. ]
Promise me you won't blame him. He's doing his best. [ That's the other reason she's not crying more. ] I can't imagine what it would to do me to see him, or you, lose yourselves while I had to watch.
[ She certainly likes to think she'd do it for them, but when the moment actually comes how someone thought they'd feel and how they actually feel aren't the same. ]
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Date: Mar. 17th, 2023 02:51 am (UTC)Not this place. It's me. What I am. I always hurt people, especially the ones I love most.
[ At some point people are going to have to accept that she's right about that, because it keeps happening. ]
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Date: Mar. 17th, 2023 02:58 am (UTC)[ Hair pets do not cease ]
What's happened now?
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Date: Mar. 17th, 2023 03:01 am (UTC)Doctor got all his memories back. And because of something in his past, he's not sure whether he'll be able to stay with me as I get closer to my hibernation.
...I understand, and I don't blame him, but... [ obviously it broke her heart. ]
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Date: Mar. 17th, 2023 03:05 am (UTC)What?
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Date: Mar. 17th, 2023 03:06 am (UTC)Don't make me say it again. [ She's trying to keep it together! ]
He's scared that seeing me deteriorate will be too much for him.
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Date: Mar. 19th, 2023 03:46 am (UTC)On the other hand . . . can he really claim not to understand? How many centuries of isolation has he lived, specifically to avoid the pain of loss?
He shifts his hand to wrap around her waist instead, pulling her in close. ]
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Date: Mar. 19th, 2023 03:51 am (UTC)Promise me you won't blame him. He's doing his best. [ That's the other reason she's not crying more. ] I can't imagine what it would to do me to see him, or you, lose yourselves while I had to watch.
[ She certainly likes to think she'd do it for them, but when the moment actually comes how someone thought they'd feel and how they actually feel aren't the same. ]
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Date: Mar. 22nd, 2023 02:11 am (UTC)[ But he's not letting go of her, either, fingers tightening in a way that might seem possessive? If Venti were given to such things, perhaps . . . ]
But that doesn't undo your pain.
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Date: Mar. 22nd, 2023 03:31 am (UTC)yet. ]My pain is temporary. I'll forget it soon enough. [ Which is the point, isn't it? ]
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Date: Mar. 23rd, 2023 12:24 am (UTC)Ali-Rin.
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Date: Mar. 23rd, 2023 12:37 am (UTC)[ She probably had an end for that sentence when she started, but nothing further comes out. ]