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[sangreine]

[ ...that is entirely not something she can do, because of her dark side. However it's very sweet that he'd try to help her feel better. ]

I don't think a big head would look nearly as good on me as it does on you. Ah how about that, I rallied.

...Thanks, Katsuki. I'll try.

[katsuking]

Confidence looks great on everybody.

But good, you better. When I'm scared, I force myself to act like I don't give a shit about anything and that I can do anything. And I force myself to smile, too.

It works surprisingly well.

[sangreine]

[ It's honestly a miracle she ever smiles, so she's doing pretty good all considered. ]

Any tips? I'm terrible at hiding my feelings, you might have noticed.

[katsuking]

Any time you feel like being down on yourself, just say the opposite. That's pretty much the best tip I've got.

When I feel like I'm going to lose a battle, I smile and tell my opponent that I'm going to kick their ass. It gives me the confidence and motivation to at least try to live up to my own words.

[sangreine]

I never have confidence problems when I'm fighting, or when I'm with one of my partners. I guess adrenaline solves everything.

[katsuking]

It doesn't need to be with combat, either. If you feel like you're a piece of shit, just try to tell yourself you're not.It works for any situation.

How do you think I get by? By being an open book and letting everyone know how I'm actually feeling every moment? No. I tell people that I'm fucking great and if they have a problem with it to fuck off.

Especially when I feel really shitty about myself.

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[ She assumes this isn't stuff he'd share with just anyone, which is touching. ]

It'll take some practice to get my heart off my sleeve, but I've got nothing to lose.

For whatever it's worth, I think you're great. Even when you might not feel that way.

[katsuking]

[This absolutely is something he wouldn't share with just anyone. He hasn't even told Izuku about this.. but the kid's so amazed by Katsuki that he can't break the illusion for him.]

Oh, I know I'm great. There's just days sometimes where I feel like the biggest loser on the planet, but I don't let other people know that. I want people to think that I'm fucking crazy and I've got all the confidence in my own abilities at all times.

I'm someone my friends rely on. I'm one of the people that, when they see me arrive, they all feel relieved and like we're going to win. I like that. I want to stay that person.

[sangreine]

[ She gets what he's saying. Fake it 'till you make it. Trouble is, she's not that person, and soon enough she'll start losing her faculties so any sort of faking might not be possible. And her sour moods don't stem from feeling underconfident, they stem from being a walking war crime. But it won't help anything to tell Katsuki that. ]

It takes a strong person to do that. [ And Saya's not sure she's that sort of strong. ]

[katsuking]

[It's a bittersweet conversation, that's for sure. And Katsuki can tell a bit from her reply that Saya's feeling a little effected by it. So, he decides now is a good time for a subject change.]

And a lot of practice.

But, you know, I originally wanted to thank you for talking some sense into me. Even though my nose still hurts like a son of a bitch, we're both... a lot happier.

It's still weird, but I like it.

[sangreine]

[ Bless him for the subject change. There's only so much she can put on a good face, even over text. His advice works for him and she's glad of it, but she's not sure she can manage it. ]

You had plenty of sense. You just had to find it underneath all the other stuff. I'm glad I could help.

[katsuking]

No, I really needed you to talk to me when you did. Otherwise I'd still be in that hotel room right now instead of laying here with the nerd using me as a pillow.

It's gross by the way. He's a drooler.

[sangreine]

[ pics or it didn't happen, Katsu-chan ]

I have unique experience in that area, at least it was good for something.

A little grossness is worth it, I'm sure. It shows he's comfortable with you. [ If she can drink her partners' blood you can handle a little drool, take it like a man! ]

[katsuking]

[No!! It's gross!!]

Yeah, yeah. He's TOO comfortable with me. Always has been. But that's why he's the only person I'm comfortable with in this kind of way in the first place so I guess it worked out for him.

He's so lucky to have me.

[sangreine]

It worked out for both of you. [ At least it's one good thing she managed to do. Nothing when weighed against the whole pile of bad, but it's something. ]

I'm glad he has you to take care of him. And to drool on. [ snicker ]

[katsuking]

As gross as it is... me too. He's been through a lot, and he needs my support now more than ever.

I don't know if you know this, but he was born without a Quirk. And only within the last couple of years was he given one, and it was so he could be a Hero who could help save the world... pretty much. He was suddenly given the biggest burden to bear on his shoulders.

That's a lot to put on a kid. And sometimes he works too hard, and doesn't think to take care of himself because of it. He always feels like he has years and years to catch up to everyone else, so he pushes himself too much. He puts himself down too much.

At least I can force some food down his throat and make him take a shower if he ends up forgetting to.

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[ The way they talk about each other is really wonderful. Kind and caring and a little idealistic and everything it should be. ]

I'll do my best to watch out for him, too. If I see him a little off-kilter I'll send him your way for some rest and care. [ The least she can do with the short time she has is help others. ]

[katsuking]

[They can't help it... they've been around each other since they were born. Always by each other's side, no matter what.]

Thank you. Seriously, I mean it.

The more eyes on him the better.

[sangreine]

Of course. He's my friend too, so it's the least I can do.

When we get back to training, maybe bring him sometime. Either to spar or to watch. We can have a big breakfast after. [ Since she usually trains in the mornings. She'll bribe someone into making a huge meal. ]

[katsuking]

Yeah, that sounds nice. I'd like to see you get your ass kicked for a change.

[sangreine]

You haven't seen all my tricks yet, you know. But if he can beat me or not, it'll be fun.

And you can show off your work with telekinesis. I know you wanted him to see it.

[katsuking]

It's not like I'm an expert at it or anything. But.. he has no idea I've even been practicing. So he'll probably freak out even if I can't do that much with it yet.

[sangreine]

You're pretty good given how long you've had the ability.
He'll definitely be impressed.

[ Saya's better with it, but her species has telepathic abilities so she had a leg up. ]

[katsuking]

He's easy to impress.

[sangreine]

Maybe he'll be more impressed with *me*, then.

[ tease tease ]