[Kainé chokes on the word. It's true, Nier had been her first and anyone after just didn't feel the same. Yet when she and Nier slept together again, it had that same feeling to it.]
So... if sleeping with this person feels different than others, and 'Touch' seems so much stronger... then... [She swallows.] You should get married?
But I...
[Her mouth hangs slightly agape as she tries to find her words. Then she scowls.]
It's annoying. How I feel like I'm drowning in his blue eyes. And how I notice every fucking sway or flip of his white hair! It pisses me off when he smiles 'cuz I get all warm and stuff! And then he's all nice to me, speaking soft and gentle!
[Kainé stands and slams her palms on the table, the drinks sloshing in their cups but not spilling. Her expression is annoyed, angry and confused all at the same time.]
I can't! [She brings a hand to her forehead, then drags it down her face.] I can't do this...
[She sinks back down in the chair, looking at the floor, her shoulders slumping a little.]
It's Nier. That's who all this shit's about. We've known each other since I was 17 and he was 16. Back then I didn't think much of him other than being confused why the hell he'd be so stubborn about letting me finally rest after I killed the Shade that murdered Grandma and got my revenge. He told me to live, and I had nothing better to do, so I said I'd help him cure his sister of the Black Scrawl.
[She sighs and continues the story.]
After I had Emil petrify me to save Nier's village, 5 years later I woke up to find out they had been searching for a way to get me back the entire time. And the first time I saw him after those 5 years, he had grown up... and was... attractive. I cursed myself for acting like some kind of schoolgirl and tried to ignore it. But every time something happened, he was there to catch me, like when my Shade took over.
[Her eyes come back up to meet Saya's, their coloring a more saturated yellow than the yellow-grey they usually are.]
He wants me to move into his apartment with him... to move inside the city. You know why I can't do that! But these... thoughts and feelings... they won't leave me the hell alone!
I didn't say you should get married. I said that's how I feel with my husband. And a few others I'm not married to.
[ Poor Kainé must be very confused by all this. Saya will have to try and be more concrete. ]
It sounds like you have feelings worth exploring. However, you'll have to decide whether living with him is worth feeling... unsafe? If that's how you feel being in the city. Sometimes the right person can help with that feeling, sometimes they can't.
What's to stop him from staying with you, where you are? Or even getting a place on the very edge of the city? My house borders the spring segment, so it's still fairly open.
[She's still blushing over the marriage comment. It's not something she'd oppose, just not something she ever thought would happen to her. At the comment about safety, she frowns.]
It's not my own safety I'm worried about. It's everyone else's. If this thing. [She waits a second for some snark from Tyrann, but he stays quiet. Probably just observing to better berate her later.] inside me, takes over. I won't be able to control who I hurt; who I kill.
[The prospect does intrigue her though. If she can get up the nerve to suggest it, it just might work.]
I don't think he'd like to camp out. Though he's offered before. A place on the outskirts though. He's good with his hands. It probably wouldn't take long for us to build a place. We've both been this town's bitch in order to earn money. I got quite a bit saved.
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Date: May. 1st, 2023 03:27 am (UTC)Sure. That's how I knew my husband and I were something different than the others I was sleeping with.
[ Not touching that monster thing, Saya knows it'll do no good and will only be a distraction. ]
Lol sorry, long one!
Date: May. 1st, 2023 04:06 am (UTC)[Kainé chokes on the word. It's true, Nier had been her first and anyone after just didn't feel the same. Yet when she and Nier slept together again, it had that same feeling to it.]
So... if sleeping with this person feels different than others, and 'Touch' seems so much stronger... then... [She swallows.] You should get married?
But I...
[Her mouth hangs slightly agape as she tries to find her words. Then she scowls.]
It's annoying. How I feel like I'm drowning in his blue eyes. And how I notice every fucking sway or flip of his white hair! It pisses me off when he smiles 'cuz I get all warm and stuff! And then he's all nice to me, speaking soft and gentle!
[Kainé stands and slams her palms on the table, the drinks sloshing in their cups but not spilling. Her expression is annoyed, angry and confused all at the same time.]
I can't! [She brings a hand to her forehead, then drags it down her face.] I can't do this...
[She sinks back down in the chair, looking at the floor, her shoulders slumping a little.]
It's Nier. That's who all this shit's about. We've known each other since I was 17 and he was 16. Back then I didn't think much of him other than being confused why the hell he'd be so stubborn about letting me finally rest after I killed the Shade that murdered Grandma and got my revenge. He told me to live, and I had nothing better to do, so I said I'd help him cure his sister of the Black Scrawl.
[She sighs and continues the story.]
After I had Emil petrify me to save Nier's village, 5 years later I woke up to find out they had been searching for a way to get me back the entire time. And the first time I saw him after those 5 years, he had grown up... and was... attractive. I cursed myself for acting like some kind of schoolgirl and tried to ignore it. But every time something happened, he was there to catch me, like when my Shade took over.
[Her eyes come back up to meet Saya's, their coloring a more saturated yellow than the yellow-grey they usually are.]
He wants me to move into his apartment with him... to move inside the city. You know why I can't do that! But these... thoughts and feelings... they won't leave me the hell alone!
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Date: May. 1st, 2023 07:31 pm (UTC)[ Poor Kainé must be very confused by all this. Saya will have to try and be more concrete. ]
It sounds like you have feelings worth exploring. However, you'll have to decide whether living with him is worth feeling... unsafe? If that's how you feel being in the city. Sometimes the right person can help with that feeling, sometimes they can't.
What's to stop him from staying with you, where you are? Or even getting a place on the very edge of the city? My house borders the spring segment, so it's still fairly open.
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Date: May. 19th, 2023 08:32 pm (UTC)It's not my own safety I'm worried about. It's everyone else's. If this thing. [She waits a second for some snark from Tyrann, but he stays quiet. Probably just observing to better berate her later.] inside me, takes over. I won't be able to control who I hurt; who I kill.
[The prospect does intrigue her though. If she can get up the nerve to suggest it, it just might work.]
I don't think he'd like to camp out. Though he's offered before. A place on the outskirts though. He's good with his hands. It probably wouldn't take long for us to build a place. We've both been this town's bitch in order to earn money. I got quite a bit saved.