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I won't need breaks, I'm good at this.
So whatever they need.

Make sure to take care of yourself at least a little bit for me?

I'll be fine. I'm used to it. Please don't worry about me, you'll assist yourself too thin.

I'm the one least emotionally affected. I can take on a little more for the rest of you.

Nonsense.
I know it's hard for you to see MK miserable.

And like I keep saying, I'm used to this. So please don't worry.

I'm pretty sure there's a huge difference between seeing someone be miserable and them actually being miserable.

And you could be that kind of miserable too.

I'm not, though.

And if I was I'm still experienced at this kind of thing in ways MK isn't.
He needs you. I can manage myself.

[There is a long, loooong pause.]

If you need support, you'll ask someone for it, right?

You're that worried?

If I need support I'll make sure you know it. Okay?
So you're aware even if you are needed more elsewhere.

Of course I am. I always worry about you.

Thank you.

[ There's a sort pause and then his phone rings. ]

[A pause of surprise, but he answers the phone.] Hello?

I wanted to hear your voice.

[ She wanted to hear his unfiltered reaction to this: ]

Us being apart was hard on you, wasn't it? [ This is related to their conversation, honest. Saya needed some distance and time, but she no longer wants him to feel like he's being held at arm's length. That's not why she's saying that he should focus on MK and not her. It's worry for her friend and that's all, nothing like a desire to shut him out. ]

Of course it was.

[He's not going to deny that.]

But I understand you needed time. That doesn't mean I didn't miss you.

And do you feel like I'm still keeping you at a distance? Or do you fret about that? Is that why you think I was encouraging you not to worry about me?

...a bit.

It feels like you're always pushing me at MK lately.

[ But isn't that what he wants? ]

That's because of him needing your support with recent events, and also I want the two of you to be happy.

And I don't want to be selfish.

When he needs help, sure, that makes sense.

But it feels like you're doing it even when MK doesn't actively need support.

We're in a relationship, you're allowed to be selfish to a degree.

I already hurt MK enough, I don't want to make things worse by overstepping. That's all.

How have you hurt MK?

The second full moon. How upset he was.

I know part of it was that you hadn't told each other your feelings yet, but if it hadn't been for me you would have had lots of time, there wouldn't have been the same pressure.

That wasn't your fault, Saya. We were the ones being stupid.

Whatever you call it, he was devastated over something I was involved in. Because of a bracelet I wear.

I'm just trying to respect his feelings. And yours about him.

Its not your fault. You may have been involved, but you're not to blame.

And neither one of us want you to be hurting yourself for how you think we want you to act.

It doesn't matter if it was my fault or wasn't, he got hurt. Weremonkey expresses things MK can't or won't, and he was miserable. You where miserable. How could that not effect me?

And he wanted you to himself. It was obvious. That's how he'd feel if he let himself. I'm in the way of that.

I couldn't possibly give you up, it's unthinkable. But that means he's giving up something he wants. It hurts me to think of how I've hurt him and how I'm still hurting him. I should want my friend to be happy but here I am in the way of it and refusing to budge.

It's difficult to reconcile. That's all. At least I know if I encourage you to be with him then you're both happy.

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