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Re: un: abnormalitylover, text, day after porty's party

[sangreine]

I'm not worried about the wall.

Are you okay? And the others?

Re: un: abnormalitylover, text, day after porty's party

[abnormalizes]

I'm fine. I grabbed Rinku and forced my way out.

Rinku saw me slice someone's arm off, and then she burned someone who grabbed her, but she managed to save her freak out until after we were safe? Honestly, I'm really proud of her. She was jittery for a while after but I think she'll be okay.

Are you okay?

Re: un: abnormalitylover, text, day after porty's party

[sangreine]

[ Rinku? This gets worse and worse. ]

I'm so sorry he did this. I really thought he'd be okay.

Re: un: abnormalitylover, text, day after porty's party

[abnormalizes]

That's twice you haven't answered my question, so until you say otherwise I'm going to assume that shit is awful and you feel awful.

Re: un: abnormalitylover, text, day after porty's party

[sangreine]

I should feel awful. He played me like a fiddle, telling me that he had feelings for me. Pressing every button I had, and I let him. And everyone was hurt by it.

Re: un: abnormalitylover, text, day after porty's party

[abnormalizes]

I realize that my standards for this are not the best and I also left early, so before I answer that: was anyone killed, seriously wounded, or permanently traumatized? Besides the security, fuck those guys.

Re: un: abnormalitylover, text, day after porty's party

[sangreine]

No one died. My husband got injured when he was thrown onto my cello but he's okay now. I assume there's trauma. And I had to pop Porty.

Re: un: abnormalitylover, text, day after porty's party

[abnormalizes]

Okay. So the trauma part sucks, but I can at least say with confidence that Rinku is going to be okay with some time, and she's still planning to throw her own birthday party on schedule so it's not like she's scared of parties now. And Rinku is like, the ur-example of 'isn't used to this kind of thing'.

From where I'm standing, you seem like the person for whom this sucked the most.

Re: un: abnormalitylover, text, day after porty's party

[sangreine]

It's what I signed up for. I went to bat for him to have more independence after he asked me to turn him and I refused, and MK didn't think it was a good idea. I said I'd be responsible for him, and I'd pop him if necessary. I watched him closely for the first few weeks and then he'd behaved, so I started doing quests again. Which was stupid.

He played me, but I should have known better. If it sucked for me then it's my own fault.

Re: un: abnormalitylover, text, day after porty's party

[abnormalizes]

Even if it was technically your fault, I don't think you deserve to suffer for trying to help someone? Even if they turned out to be a fucking dick.

Re: un: abnormalitylover, text, day after porty's party

[sangreine]

I don't want to argue about it. You can't change my mind right now.

Re: un: abnormalitylover, text, day after porty's party

[abnormalizes]

Okay.

Do you want more super-booze?

Re: un: abnormalitylover, text, day after porty's party

[sangreine]

Thank you, but no. I need to think.

Re: un: abnormalitylover, text, day after porty's party

[abnormalizes]

Okay. Let me know if there's anything else I can do for you.

Re: un: abnormalitylover, text, day after porty's party

[sangreine]

Not unless you have an answer about why I have to kill everyone I love.

Re: un: abnormalitylover, text, day after porty's party

[abnormalizes]

Someone else could have done it, I would have if he hadn't gotten out of my way. Did you ask anyone else?

Re: un: abnormalitylover, text, day after porty's party

[sangreine]

It was my responsibility. I agreed that if anything went wrong, I'd be the one to end it. I knew that I could, I killed my entire family because I had to. That doesn't mean I wanted to, or ever thought I would have to.

He was so sweet to me. I thought we cared deeply about each other. That's what he told me.
It was a lie so that he could do what he did.

Re: un: abnormalitylover, text, day after porty's party

[abnormalizes]

Okay, in the nicest way possible: you did not have to make that agreement and really shouldn't have. I know MK's pretty overpowered when he wants to be and so are his clones, but also there are other absurdly powerful people here who could have handled it. Just because you could handle it doesn't mean you had to.

I know you're used to being the only person who is capable of dealing with a problem no matter the emotional cost to yourself, but that isn't the case here.

Re: un: abnormalitylover, text, day after porty's party

[sangreine]

You don't understand. That was the only way they'd let him stay out and even try to be on his own, if I promised to end it if anything happened. It had to be me. I promised.

Re: un: abnormalitylover, text, day after porty's party

[abnormalizes]

Did MK make you promise that?

Re: un: abnormalitylover, text, day after porty's party

[sangreine]

Him and the clone he brought out to negotiate the whole thing, yes.

Re: un: abnormalitylover, text, day after porty's party

[abnormalizes]

What the fuck! That's fucked up! I'm going to talk to him.

Re: un: abnormalitylover, text, day after porty's party

[sangreine]

What? No, you can't. He feels bad enough and he has enough on his plate right now. I took this on because I can handle it. I've done it before.

Please, don't make me regret talking to you. [ Because if she does, this will be the last time it happens. ]

Re: un: abnormalitylover, text, day after porty's party

[abnormalizes]

...Okay. I won't say anything to him right now. But he shouldn't have even asked you to do that, let alone made you promise to! That's fucked up even by my standards!

Just because you CAN doesn't mean you should HAVE TO. Your emotional well-being matters to a lot of people, including me, and it should matter to MK too!

Re: un: abnormalitylover, text, day after porty's party

[sangreine]

He cares about my emotional well-being, I'm his best friend here. Please don't think he doesn't care. It was a deal we made, that's all. That if I wanted Porty to get a chance to be independent then I had to be responsible for what he did.
It was a reasonable consequence.