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Re: un: abnormalitylover, text, day after porty's party

[abnormalizes]

Okay.

Do you want more super-booze?

Re: un: abnormalitylover, text, day after porty's party

[sangreine]

Thank you, but no. I need to think.

Re: un: abnormalitylover, text, day after porty's party

[abnormalizes]

Okay. Let me know if there's anything else I can do for you.

Re: un: abnormalitylover, text, day after porty's party

[sangreine]

Not unless you have an answer about why I have to kill everyone I love.

Re: un: abnormalitylover, text, day after porty's party

[abnormalizes]

Someone else could have done it, I would have if he hadn't gotten out of my way. Did you ask anyone else?

Re: un: abnormalitylover, text, day after porty's party

[sangreine]

It was my responsibility. I agreed that if anything went wrong, I'd be the one to end it. I knew that I could, I killed my entire family because I had to. That doesn't mean I wanted to, or ever thought I would have to.

He was so sweet to me. I thought we cared deeply about each other. That's what he told me.
It was a lie so that he could do what he did.

Re: un: abnormalitylover, text, day after porty's party

[abnormalizes]

Okay, in the nicest way possible: you did not have to make that agreement and really shouldn't have. I know MK's pretty overpowered when he wants to be and so are his clones, but also there are other absurdly powerful people here who could have handled it. Just because you could handle it doesn't mean you had to.

I know you're used to being the only person who is capable of dealing with a problem no matter the emotional cost to yourself, but that isn't the case here.

Re: un: abnormalitylover, text, day after porty's party

[sangreine]

You don't understand. That was the only way they'd let him stay out and even try to be on his own, if I promised to end it if anything happened. It had to be me. I promised.

Re: un: abnormalitylover, text, day after porty's party

[abnormalizes]

Did MK make you promise that?

Re: un: abnormalitylover, text, day after porty's party

[sangreine]

Him and the clone he brought out to negotiate the whole thing, yes.

Re: un: abnormalitylover, text, day after porty's party

[abnormalizes]

What the fuck! That's fucked up! I'm going to talk to him.

Re: un: abnormalitylover, text, day after porty's party

[sangreine]

What? No, you can't. He feels bad enough and he has enough on his plate right now. I took this on because I can handle it. I've done it before.

Please, don't make me regret talking to you. [ Because if she does, this will be the last time it happens. ]

Re: un: abnormalitylover, text, day after porty's party

[abnormalizes]

...Okay. I won't say anything to him right now. But he shouldn't have even asked you to do that, let alone made you promise to! That's fucked up even by my standards!

Just because you CAN doesn't mean you should HAVE TO. Your emotional well-being matters to a lot of people, including me, and it should matter to MK too!

Re: un: abnormalitylover, text, day after porty's party

[sangreine]

He cares about my emotional well-being, I'm his best friend here. Please don't think he doesn't care. It was a deal we made, that's all. That if I wanted Porty to get a chance to be independent then I had to be responsible for what he did.
It was a reasonable consequence.

Re: un: abnormalitylover, text, day after porty's party

[abnormalizes]

It sucks and I hate it for you. And I hate that Porty did this knowing you'd be forced to kill him over it! I'm way more mad about that than the whole hostage thing!

What the fuck. This whole situation is awful and you deserve to have someone get mad over how badly you were done wrong.

Re: un: abnormalitylover, text, day after porty's party

[sangreine]

It's my fault. He played me like a fiddle to try and win his freedom. I should have seen it.

Please don't be mad, I did this to myself.

Re: un: abnormalitylover, text, day after porty's party

[abnormalizes]

No I'm pretty sure the guy who manipulated your feelings and then attacked your husband is the problem here, not you.

Re: un: abnormalitylover, text, day after porty's party

[sangreine]

It was my job to see it. My husband got hurt and a whole slew of people were terrorized because I was blind.

Re: un: abnormalitylover, text, day after porty's party

[abnormalizes]

Can I at least-

I understand you're not wrong. I know how being inattentive gets people hurt even if it's not you directly doing the hurting. I get that.

But also, this still sucks ass for you specifically, and I don't think denying comfort for that will make anyone else feel better about it, or make you more alert in the future, or do anything useful.

Re: un: abnormalitylover, text, day after porty's party

[sangreine]

When I killed my family, my whole species, over centuries, the only thing that kept me held together through it all was this. I'm just doing my best not to break.

So please, I know you mean well, but please don't push me.

Re: un: abnormalitylover, text, day after porty's party

[abnormalizes]

Okay.

You're a good friend. If time passes and there's something I can do, let me know, otherwise I'll leave you alone.

Re: un: abnormalitylover, text, day after porty's party

[sangreine]

Thank you.