Hey, there. [ She embraces him easily. ] You've been quite busy, I see. It's adorable how excited you are. [ She allows herself to be ushered inside. ]
Ha ha! What can I say? I get to go into business with my daughter and a certain bus boy isn't around to get in the way.
It's glorious!
[Inside is obviously a lobby of a hotel. It has a check in desk, a bar, a nice fireplace and seating area, everything is reds, golds, and whites. Like his own color scheme.]
You get a sneak peek at the Haven Hotel. Your safe have for a second chance! I came up with the tag line. What do you think?
[ It's cute as hell, pardon the expression, is what it is. Saya smiles as she glances around, taking in everything and making appropriately appreciative noises. ]
[ Even if she nearly swallows her tongue at that line about second chances. ]
Thank you! Oh we are so excited. We're aiming for July for the opening. We're still sourcing guests and staff but that will come as it needs to, I'm sure.
Oh yes. Your gift. Follow me. [He leads Saya deeper into the building and into his workshop here on the ground floor.]
I want to teach people how to make things. See if they can't channel their energies into something creative. And this is where I made this for you!
[He snags something off his work bench. He holds out a beautiful rubber ducky. It has a crown on its head, a dress, and beautiful eyelashes.]
Now, I am trying to do something different with this one. Take it. It should, if I did this right, attune to you.
Well, if you need any help that's in my power to give, just ask. I'd love to meet your daughter, either way.
[ She follows along, amused when the gift is, in fact, a duck. ]
Attune? [ With a smile, she accepts the Queen Duckling, and brings it up to eye level. "Attune" means only one thing to her, and her eyes glow red as she looks at the pretty duck. ]
I'll definitely take you up on that. A queen guest at the grand opening would be fantastic. And let me know if you ever want to work here. The staff and guests here won't be so grabby. Just a thought. You would be such a good listener and could teach people music. Help them learn a skill that's good and not destructive.
Or self defense. Anything you'd want.
[The duck sits there as Saya stares at it. The duck's eyes glow red and opens its beak. It lets out a soft lovely little melody. Like a music box.]
The more you hold it, he more the music should change to suit you. Your mood, what you want to listen to, what you're singing. I hope it works. Let me know if there's any kinks, alright? It is one of the more complicated ducks I've made.
[ Saya looks up and giggles, her eyes dulling back to their normal auburn. ] I doubt you could afford to pay me what they do to be a side of meat. Besides, I'm used to it now. Everyone knows that if you try to grab me, you're not getting that hand back intact. [ No mercy for asshats. ]
And I'm not sure I'd be a very good counselor on second chances. My background is a dark one and I haven't redeemed myself for it. I'd be more suited to be a client.
[ The duckling makes her giggle again, and she trots over to give Lucifer a kiss on the cheek as the duck plays a bright tune. ] You're sweet. Thank you, I love it.
I'll think about it. [ She thinks that she might be an utterly frustrating exercise for whoever tries to help her. She doesn't especially want absolution. ]
[ She places the duck on her shoulder, perfectly balanced, and hums for it so that the music continues. ]
I try my best. What could I gift you in return, I wonder? There must be something.
That's all I ask is you think about it. This is a place for a second chance or just working through things. Rehabilitation and self-improvement. It isn't like we're trying to get souls into heaven here.
[He chuckles.]
Whatever you wish to. I wanted to make it for you for being my friend. Someone who doesn't judge me. I appreciate you very much, Saya. And that's why I made it for you.
If your goal is getting souls into heaven, I think I might be a lost cause. Maybe the time would be better spent on others. [ Who haven't, you know, perpetrated a genocide on their own families. How many commandments does that break? ]
[ She gives him a smile. ] Of course I wouldn't judge you. You're lovely. And you haven't judged me, either.
[He notices the shudder but doesn't bring it up. She moves on quickly to another difficult subject.]
No one is hopeless. And I believe in you. But if you do not want to, then I will not push. Just the idea is there and our doors will always be open. Even if you just need a hug and a stiff drink.
It's not a lack of wanting to. I'd love to meet your daughter, for one thing. [ Turns out they're going to meet in the least favorable situation, but anyway. ]
I have a hard time getting into what I did, especially with anyone who is generally understanding. Being soothed or comforted feels like it's diminishing the weight of it. And then I start arguing because I feel I have to, on behalf of those I wronged so horribly, and it starts to sound like I just want to be miserable. It's never gone well.
[Lucifer hums.] Sounds like you want to talk to someone who acknowledges the gravity of what you've done. Not attempts to soothe your feelings over it but tackle the gravity of the sins. Am I understanding correctly?
That's more or less it. I can't possibly see any hope unless I know that there's agreement on the scale of the problem. Everyone always wants to jump to the comfort and skip the middle. I understand that they want to make me feel better but I don't think I should feel better, so it ends up that I stop responding in order to get out of the discussion with a minimum of damage to them or to the relationship.
You sinned. You feel guilty and that guilt you want acknowledged, not buried. Whatever the context, that's important. Your guilt is important. I understand that. We can't just erase the mistakes and decisions of the past by soothing ourselves and not looking at what we did. Why we did it. And know the gravity of it.
It's more that what those who I wronged went through needs to be at the center of any discussion. My guilt is what it is because I took away their voice. Any comfort or reassurance for me takes away from that, and how can that possibly be good?
...I always fail entirely at explaining this well. But I feel like, generally, the goal of getting me to feel better is a bad one and so the discussion is doomed before it begins. The only time I've felt like there was any good resolution is when Wukong agreed to train me to prevent what I did from happening again. At least that was productive. Making me feel better is not productive, and a pointless effort besides.
A discussion on them then. Since what you did to them is why you feel guilt. I think you're doing a fine job so far.
Did you want to talk about those people now? Either way is okay. I didn't mean to get us started down this path but if you would like to, I would listen.
Being proactive and productive does sound like a good idea. How has the training been going?
Right, because you don't know the specifics. You of all people would probably be safest to talk about it with, I'm sure you've seen everything. But I still don't want to. Not yet.
Training is... going. The trouble is that in order to really make progress I'll need to be tested in ways that might make it happen again. I'll have to let go of the tight grip I have on my control. Last time that happened I hurt one of my partners immeasurably and a whole slew of others. That's not an easy thing to risk.
I mean, I have seen the scope and breadth of depravity and sin, true.
Hmm. No, it wouldn't be. To let yourself go, you'd need to make sure that wouldn't happen. As in completely sure.
If you like, I could talk to Wukong about assisting? I think between the two of us, we could take you. And I can practice my Spring healing powers as well. We all win.
I'm quite sure he can confine or kill me if he wished to, given his army of clones. I might be able to outrun one of him when I'm lost, but not that many. [ But she's never seen Wukong's top speed... then again, he's never seen hers. She only pulls out all the stops when she's out of control, so. ]
I assume you have impressive capabilities? I don't mean to pry, I only want to be sure I couldn't possibly hurt you. I'm a handful when I lose control.
Oh quite impressive. I usually don't try very hard, I'll admit. But angelic power does have it's advantages. And I am immortal. You couldn't smite me even if you wanted to.
I do believe in Wukong though. I'm certain he can do the job. Though he isn't the only one with clones.
Wukong and I are immortal too, and we can still die here. I was always theoretically killable under certain specific conditions, it's just incredibly hard. And Wukong shouldn't be able to die at all under any circumstance. I have no desire to find out that you're able to be killed here by it happening at my hand.
That said, if you wanted to help I'm sure he'd embrace it. He isn't precious about it, he knows how important this is to me.
--That would mean I have to tell you everything, and I'm not sure I'm there yet. It's not a lack of trust, I promise.
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Re: Voice - UN: KingofHell
Date: Jun. 22nd, 2024 02:00 am (UTC)Hey, there. [ She embraces him easily. ] You've been quite busy, I see. It's adorable how excited you are. [ She allows herself to be ushered inside. ]
Re: Voice - UN: KingofHell
Date: Jun. 22nd, 2024 02:10 am (UTC)It's glorious!
[Inside is obviously a lobby of a hotel. It has a check in desk, a bar, a nice fireplace and seating area, everything is reds, golds, and whites. Like his own color scheme.]
You get a sneak peek at the Haven Hotel. Your safe have for a second chance! I came up with the tag line. What do you think?
Re: Voice - UN: KingofHell
Date: Jun. 22nd, 2024 02:16 am (UTC)[ Even if she nearly swallows her tongue at that line about second chances. ]
It's really beautiful. You two did a great job.
Re: Voice - UN: KingofHell
Date: Jun. 24th, 2024 03:57 am (UTC)Oh yes. Your gift. Follow me. [He leads Saya deeper into the building and into his workshop here on the ground floor.]
I want to teach people how to make things. See if they can't channel their energies into something creative. And this is where I made this for you!
[He snags something off his work bench. He holds out a beautiful rubber ducky. It has a crown on its head, a dress, and beautiful eyelashes.]
Now, I am trying to do something different with this one. Take it. It should, if I did this right, attune to you.
Give it a try.
Re: Voice - UN: KingofHell
Date: Jun. 24th, 2024 04:40 am (UTC)[ She follows along, amused when the gift is, in fact, a duck. ]
Attune? [ With a smile, she accepts the Queen Duckling, and brings it up to eye level. "Attune" means only one thing to her, and her eyes glow red as she looks at the pretty duck. ]
Re: Voice - UN: KingofHell
Date: Jun. 25th, 2024 04:12 pm (UTC)Or self defense. Anything you'd want.
[The duck sits there as Saya stares at it. The duck's eyes glow red and opens its beak. It lets out a soft lovely little melody. Like a music box.]
The more you hold it, he more the music should change to suit you. Your mood, what you want to listen to, what you're singing. I hope it works. Let me know if there's any kinks, alright? It is one of the more complicated ducks I've made.
Re: Voice - UN: KingofHell
Date: Jun. 25th, 2024 04:24 pm (UTC)And I'm not sure I'd be a very good counselor on second chances. My background is a dark one and I haven't redeemed myself for it. I'd be more suited to be a client.
[ The duckling makes her giggle again, and she trots over to give Lucifer a kiss on the cheek as the duck plays a bright tune. ] You're sweet. Thank you, I love it.
Re: Voice - UN: KingofHell
Date: Jun. 25th, 2024 05:11 pm (UTC)[He smiles and kisses her cheek in return.]
You're very welcome. You're sweet yourself, you know.
Re: Voice - UN: KingofHell
Date: Jun. 25th, 2024 08:32 pm (UTC)[ She places the duck on her shoulder, perfectly balanced, and hums for it so that the music continues. ]
I try my best. What could I gift you in return, I wonder? There must be something.
Re: Voice - UN: KingofHell
Date: Jun. 25th, 2024 09:45 pm (UTC)[He chuckles.]
Whatever you wish to. I wanted to make it for you for being my friend. Someone who doesn't judge me. I appreciate you very much, Saya. And that's why I made it for you.
Re: Voice - UN: KingofHell
Date: Jun. 26th, 2024 06:12 pm (UTC)[ She gives him a smile. ] Of course I wouldn't judge you. You're lovely. And you haven't judged me, either.
Re: Voice - UN: KingofHell
Date: Jun. 26th, 2024 08:44 pm (UTC)[He gives a soft smile back.]
And I'm glad neither of us are the judgmental type. It is why I enjoy being your friend so much.
Re: Voice - UN: KingofHell
Date: Jun. 26th, 2024 09:09 pm (UTC)I think I'm pretty hopeless. [ She meant that to come out as a joke, but it lands rather heavily. ]
There's a reason I'm not judgmental, is all.
Re: Voice - UN: KingofHell
Date: Jun. 27th, 2024 03:06 am (UTC)No one is hopeless. And I believe in you. But if you do not want to, then I will not push. Just the idea is there and our doors will always be open. Even if you just need a hug and a stiff drink.
Re: Voice - UN: KingofHell
Date: Jun. 27th, 2024 03:19 am (UTC)I have a hard time getting into what I did, especially with anyone who is generally understanding. Being soothed or comforted feels like it's diminishing the weight of it. And then I start arguing because I feel I have to, on behalf of those I wronged so horribly, and it starts to sound like I just want to be miserable. It's never gone well.
Re: Voice - UN: KingofHell
Date: Jun. 27th, 2024 04:10 pm (UTC)[Lucifer hums.] Sounds like you want to talk to someone who acknowledges the gravity of what you've done. Not attempts to soothe your feelings over it but tackle the gravity of the sins. Am I understanding correctly?
Re: Voice - UN: KingofHell
Date: Jun. 27th, 2024 04:16 pm (UTC)Re: Voice - UN: KingofHell
Date: Jun. 27th, 2024 04:37 pm (UTC)Re: Voice - UN: KingofHell
Date: Jun. 27th, 2024 05:27 pm (UTC)...I always fail entirely at explaining this well. But I feel like, generally, the goal of getting me to feel better is a bad one and so the discussion is doomed before it begins. The only time I've felt like there was any good resolution is when Wukong agreed to train me to prevent what I did from happening again. At least that was productive. Making me feel better is not productive, and a pointless effort besides.
Re: Voice - UN: KingofHell
Date: Jun. 27th, 2024 05:32 pm (UTC)Did you want to talk about those people now? Either way is okay. I didn't mean to get us started down this path but if you would like to, I would listen.
Being proactive and productive does sound like a good idea. How has the training been going?
Re: Voice - UN: KingofHell
Date: Jun. 27th, 2024 05:51 pm (UTC)Training is... going. The trouble is that in order to really make progress I'll need to be tested in ways that might make it happen again. I'll have to let go of the tight grip I have on my control. Last time that happened I hurt one of my partners immeasurably and a whole slew of others. That's not an easy thing to risk.
Re: Voice - UN: KingofHell
Date: Jun. 27th, 2024 07:53 pm (UTC)Hmm. No, it wouldn't be. To let yourself go, you'd need to make sure that wouldn't happen. As in completely sure.
If you like, I could talk to Wukong about assisting? I think between the two of us, we could take you. And I can practice my Spring healing powers as well. We all win.
Re: Voice - UN: KingofHell
Date: Jun. 27th, 2024 08:13 pm (UTC)I'm quite sure he can confine or kill me if he wished to, given his army of clones. I might be able to outrun one of him when I'm lost, but not that many. [ But she's never seen Wukong's top speed... then again, he's never seen hers. She only pulls out all the stops when she's out of control, so. ]
I assume you have impressive capabilities? I don't mean to pry, I only want to be sure I couldn't possibly hurt you. I'm a handful when I lose control.
Re: Voice - UN: KingofHell
Date: Jun. 27th, 2024 08:17 pm (UTC)I do believe in Wukong though. I'm certain he can do the job. Though he isn't the only one with clones.
Re: Voice - UN: KingofHell
Date: Jun. 28th, 2024 07:57 pm (UTC)That said, if you wanted to help I'm sure he'd embrace it. He isn't precious about it, he knows how important this is to me.
--That would mean I have to tell you everything, and I'm not sure I'm there yet. It's not a lack of trust, I promise.
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