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sangreine

She nods miserably. She doesn't know why it's up in the first place.

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noodleboi

MK drops the bubble. The sound comes back and he knocks on the table, letting the noise sound out in the kitchen.

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sangreine

He didn't have to knock the table, because as soon as the bubble drops he'll hear Saya crying near-hysterically.

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noodleboi

MK's lip quivers hearing the sound of her crying. He stands and walks around to stand beside her. He doesn't touch but he opens his arms in case she needs or even wants a hug.

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sangreine

Saya peeks out and it looks for a long moment like she might shoo MK off, but then she tps over and falls against him.

"I'm sorry."

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noodleboi

MK is ready to be shooed away. She is suddenly tipping and he catches her, holding her close.

"I know. I know," he rubs her back and his voice is soft as a whisper now.

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sangreine

"I don't know what to do. I don't want to be this way."

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noodleboi

"That's the first step. Knowing you don't want to keep being this. And you aren't alone. The people who love you are here to help. Let us all in. Let it out. We can take it. Don't push us away. Remember you are more than just one thing. Let us remind you of all the other things you are. The things you do."

Mk holds her a little tighter and his voice cracks. "A-And let yourself hear it. Don't...dismiss it because you don't feel like it's true. Because it is for us. For them. And that means so much."

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sangreine

"But what if I can't?"

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noodleboi

"If you can't yet, you work on it. Ask for help. And write down what they say. So you can read it and practice. Knowing they won't lie to you. Why would they? They can't be wrong about how they feel. They can't be wrong that they love you."

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sangreine

She nods in a way that's impossible to tell how much she's really taking in.

"I'm so scared."

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noodleboi

"We're all scared. All the time. ...I'm scared too. Scared of losing my best friend."

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sangreine

She wishes she could tell him that won't happen, but she can't.

So Saya just keeps right on crying.

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noodleboi

MK doesn't say anything else. He just holds Saya for now, rubbing her back and letting her cry.

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sangreine

It takes quite a while for her crying to slow down even a little.

She hasn't entirely stopped when she whispers, "I'll try." It's the best she's got. Even if she feels like she's already failed.

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noodleboi

"Thank you. For trying. And I forgive you," MK whispers and is quiet for a moment.

I'm trying too.

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sangreine

"I know," she whispers again. Her voice is hoarse from sobbing so that's the best she's got. And she'd never doubted that MK was trying.

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noodleboi

MK keeps holding Saya. He pets her hair and pulls back to kiss her forehead.

"We need more tea."

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sangreine

Saya nods and flops over onto the counter, hiding her face in her folded arms. MK knows how to get more tea, she figures, and she doesn't especially feel up to showing her face yet since she's still crying.

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noodleboi

MK plucks out a hair and makes a clone to make tea. He stays near Saya and is going to just keep rubbing her back and wrapping an arm around her. He isn't leaving her. Not right now.

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sangreine

Eventually, Saya sits up and wipes her face with a handkerchief.

"I'm not used to having to deal with this. Usually I'd get depressed and closed off and then I'd go to sleep and wake up happy because I didn't remember anything." She's literally never gotten herself out of a depression before. It always solved itself.

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noodleboi

"It's always hard. And I get why it's so hard for you since that's how it would go all the other times. It's like learning a whole new thing that is all unknown for you. Sounds scary on top of difficult."

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sangreine

"Especially when I have a habit of making everything I touch worse." From her perspective, at least.

"It was naive to think that Red Son giving me a shot of medicine would fix this. I have to fix it. And I'm still wavering on whether I want to. I told you that I'll try and I will, but that's my honest feeling."

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noodleboi

"Did it make it better at all after? The shot. I remember me and Monkey King sitting with you and you didn't go crazy or anything so there was that but did it help at all? I'm just wondering if maybe, it did, a few more might be a help for you to work on fixing it. Like a boost?"

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sangreine

"I thought it did. But it was just euphoria because I thought my troubles were more or less over. But once that wore off I was left with this." She gestures at her sorry state. "It did prevent me from sleeping, so it was still worth doing."

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