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From:

forgingfires

You're not a hypocrite to want someone back how you knew them.

From:

sangreine

I would be. I don't want my own memories back.

From:

forgingfires

You don't have a lot to regain with your memories. Wukong does. And he doesn't really have much without, at least not without complications.

From:

sangreine

You don't know that and neither do I. Many people would say there's value in remembering the people who loved you beyond the day of their death, which is all I have of my father. I barely have more of Riku.

I'm sparing myself from pain, nothing more. And if any of them show up here then how would they find my choice to leave them mostly forgotten? What about those I don't remember at all?

Please don't make assumptions about what I have to gain or lose.

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forgingfires

Sorry, I just meant

Wukong has the people here. Who do remember him.

If any of those people showed up, it would be a different matter. Trying to live your life for people who might hypothetically show up wouldn't be fair to you because who even knows what those odds actually are. So it only makes sense to do what is best for you when it is just you.

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sangreine

[ "Wukong has people here"... her mind fills in another piece of that sentence: "and you don't." Little reminders of everything she lost crop up at moments like this, she supposes that's only natural when there's a whole life of loss. She knows that wasn't intended to hurt her though so no sense dwelling on it. ]

Right, I get it.

Well like I said, however I can help.

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forgingfires

[Of course Saya has people here. Its just not the people she's forgotten. She's not hurting anyone. No one is suffering for her to not have her memories.]

[Meanwhile, people were for Wukong, because of the people he's met more recently, compared to everyone else he lost.]

Mostly keeping track of Wukong, if you're up for it. MK and Macaque are going to need breaks. I don't know if you will, but then we just switch out.

Keep the mental and emotional fatigue to a minimum while babysitting an overpowered brat.

From:

sangreine

I won't need breaks, I'm good at this.
So whatever they need.

From:

forgingfires

Make sure to take care of yourself at least a little bit for me?

From:

sangreine

I'll be fine. I'm used to it. Please don't worry about me, you'll assist yourself too thin.

From:

forgingfires

I'm the one least emotionally affected. I can take on a little more for the rest of you.

From:

sangreine

Nonsense.
I know it's hard for you to see MK miserable.

And like I keep saying, I'm used to this. So please don't worry.

From:

forgingfires

I'm pretty sure there's a huge difference between seeing someone be miserable and them actually being miserable.

And you could be that kind of miserable too.

From:

sangreine

I'm not, though.

And if I was I'm still experienced at this kind of thing in ways MK isn't.
He needs you. I can manage myself.

From:

forgingfires

[There is a long, loooong pause.]

If you need support, you'll ask someone for it, right?

From:

sangreine

You're that worried?

If I need support I'll make sure you know it. Okay?
So you're aware even if you are needed more elsewhere.

From:

forgingfires

Of course I am. I always worry about you.

Thank you.

From:

sangreine

[ There's a sort pause and then his phone rings. ]

From:

forgingfires

[A pause of surprise, but he answers the phone.] Hello?

From:

sangreine

I wanted to hear your voice.

[ She wanted to hear his unfiltered reaction to this: ]

Us being apart was hard on you, wasn't it? [ This is related to their conversation, honest. Saya needed some distance and time, but she no longer wants him to feel like he's being held at arm's length. That's not why she's saying that he should focus on MK and not her. It's worry for her friend and that's all, nothing like a desire to shut him out. ]

From:

forgingfires

Of course it was.

[He's not going to deny that.]

But I understand you needed time. That doesn't mean I didn't miss you.

From:

sangreine

And do you feel like I'm still keeping you at a distance? Or do you fret about that? Is that why you think I was encouraging you not to worry about me?

From:

forgingfires

...a bit.

It feels like you're always pushing me at MK lately.

From:

sangreine

[ But isn't that what he wants? ]

That's because of him needing your support with recent events, and also I want the two of you to be happy.

And I don't want to be selfish.

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forgingfires

When he needs help, sure, that makes sense.

But it feels like you're doing it even when MK doesn't actively need support.

We're in a relationship, you're allowed to be selfish to a degree.

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