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abnormalizes

[Evangeline arrives, carrying a metal crate and two plastic cups. When she sees Saya-]

You look really tired. Blood first, then we can drink.

Edited Date: Jul. 26th, 2023 07:07 am (UTC)

From:

sangreine

You're leading with that? I must really look like hell.

[ Saya gestures toward the open door of the spare bedroom she decorated to be as resistant of bloodstains as she could manage: dark furniture, sleek dark sheets, patterned rugs. There's a padded bench at the foot of the bed where she flops unceremoniously down. ]

I hope you're okay with this look, even after a feeding I should probably keep shifting to a minimum. [ She's backlogged after all, and she doesn't want to take too much from Evangeline. Drinking won't be any fun if she's too hypoxic. ]

Come here, then.

From:

abnormalizes

The form's fine, don't worry about that. [Evangeline plops down on the bed and sets the box aside, then pulls down her collar.] I'm told that people worrying about you is a normal part of friendships you can't escape.

[It applies in reverse, too.]

From:

sangreine

"Can't escape" makes it sound like minor terrorism. Which I guess it can be, sometimes. [ Like when you're sure you don't deserve it... she'll probably get there once she's good and shitfaced. ]

[ Saya leans close, giving herself another stern reminder not to take too much, and then she bites into Evangeline's neck and her silvery wings flare out just a little. ]

From:

abnormalizes

[Evangeline doesn't hold back her moan when Saya bites her. Even if her plan is to drink before getting handsy, nothing wrong with showing a little appreciation.

There are the usual emotions present in Evangeline's blood (namely, horny feelings), but there's also a strong sense of relief. Thank god all that is over with and they can relax now, they deserve it.]

From:

sangreine

[ For once, Saya isn't too responsive to the handsiness. Not objecting, it's fine, she's just tired in every possible way and this won't be enough to get her back to an even keel. She'll probably need another two meals for that, and it will be some time before the secretive assholes she adores in this house are up to feeding her again. ]

[ She pulls back and dabs at her mouth, reaching over to the nightstand for a handkerchief. This room is well prepared for donors. ]

From:

abnormalizes

Mm, enjoy your meal.

[While Saya's wiping her mouth, Evangeline opens the crate she's brought. It's full of a glowing green liquid, which she fills up two cups with.]

It doesn't really taste like anything, but if it works on you you should feel it pretty much instantly.

From:

sangreine

[ She hands Evangeline a second handkerchief. ] For your neck.

[ She accepts a glass and peers at it for a second, then in a shrug that clearly communicates FUCK IT she drinks it down. ]

[ Hm. ]

It's having some effect, yes. [ Not immediate drunkenness but there is a spreading warmth that seems familiar from the only other time she managed to get drunk, bless BiT and their magic booze. ] Thanks.

From:

abnormalizes

[Evangeline wipes her neck off, then drinks from her own glass. Her face immediately begins to flush red.]

-Woo! Yeah, for us mere mortals this stuff's a lot.

From:

sangreine

[ Saya giggles and helps herself to more of the glowing drinks. If she's going to keep up with her metabolism she'll have to drink at a steady clip. ]

What were we going to talk about, again? Having a shitty past and other people not knowing how to deal with it, something like that?

From:

abnormalizes

Something like that! Like, yeah, my life sucks, but when they get upset I feel like I have to comfort them and that's not fair.

From:

sangreine

It's really not. I've lost count of the ways people find to be extremely dismissive.

Like call it whatever you want to, friend or lover or whatever you are, disregarding people's wishes is shitty no matter what you dress it up as.

From:

abnormalizes

Yeah, yeah. Like, I want to be treated like a normal person and have a good time here, I don't want to dwell on the bad stuff. Is that so much to ask?

From:

sangreine

I sometimes do want to dwell on it. Sometimes I want to isolate myself or do other things that are objectively unhealthy. But that doesn't mean I want to be lectured to or disregarded or treated like they're doing things for my own good, which is a pretty gross and dismissive concept.

I do get that it's frustrating for them, though. I really do. Especially when it's not my past we're talking about, but the present.

From:

abnormalizes

Do you wanna, like. Just yell about it sometimes. Just get really loud?

[she's DEFINITELY drunk]

From:

sangreine

I'm not really one to yell. I more shut down and get really cold. It's not pretty.

[ Also a lot harder to convince people it was out of emotion. ]

From:

abnormalizes

I don't think I could do the cold thing. It'd be easier if I could, I guess. Like yeah it's probably not healthy, but it hurts less sometimes than feeling everything so strongly.

From:

sangreine

You've got it backwards. It makes everything harder. People are a lot more hurt by cold cruelty than by a little shouting, even if the words are the same ones. They see the emotion behind yelling, it's obvious. When someone goes cold there's this veneer of rationality to it. Think about the words people use to describe the two: emotions running high versus cold indifference. But they don't account for the fact that I'm not human, and I don't work the same way, so... [ she makes a gesture that somehow indicates "shit gets really complicated". ]

And it's not out of a lack of strong feelings, I assure you. My species has feelings that hit like a freight train. It's more like... a power surge that leads to a blown fuse knocking out the lights.

From:

abnormalizes

The more you look like a human, the more people assume you work like one.

[She's seen it firsthand in her work.]

-but I'm sorry people don't get you.

From:

sangreine

[ Another gesture, this one amounting to "what are ya gonna do?" ]

Human-centrism is a problem even in multi-dimensional places, apparently. I don't mind it so much most of the time, but there are times when I wish people made more of an effort to remember things.

Like oh, you think I shouldn't think in short-sighted ways? Thanks for that, sure no problem, except that I don't get a long-term because it's not possible. At least have the good grace to look like you're sorry once I remind you. If I got an extra month for every time someone said something boneheaded about being patient I wouldn't have to worry about it anymore.

From:

abnormalizes

Humans aren't even that understanding of other humans that have different circumstances than them, so it's not surprising. We kind of suck sometimes.

[She's not the biggest fan of humans, unsurprisingly.]

For me it's like, 'your world is awful you should revolt against the system-' if I do that I will instantly be killed and I would rather not, thanks.

From:

sangreine

Oh, I know. My home world is genocide and imperialism central, and my species didn't do all that. I love humans as individuals, but yeah.

...People say that to you? Wow. I think everyone should care about systems that are awful but if you say there's nothing to be gained by fighting it then I believe you. I guess it's easy to cash checks from someone else's wallet.

From:

abnormalizes

Not only that, but one guy even said that the people in my world are weak and basically deserve to be miserable for not fighting back harder.

[This conversation was with Red Son, incidentally, which is why he's the only person Evangeline Does Not Like.]

People do try to change things, and they die miserably for it every time. I'm not any stronger than any of those people were, and I have a family to take care of before I go serving up my own head on a platter.

From:

sangreine

Seriously? Some people spend way too much time in their own sheltered worlds. Either that or they're so scared of the concept that they can't win every fight that they've deluded themselves. [ If Saya knew who said that she'd get why, but she'd give him hell over saying something so gross. Honestly, she adores the man but he needs to take several seats. ]

Sometimes people don't get choices. Especially people who can die.

From:

abnormalizes

Yeah, seriously. I've cleaned up too many of my coworkers' bodies not to be aware of my own mortality.

[She's stronger and better-equipped than the average human, but she's still just a human.]

I already don't expect to have that long a time alive. Is it so wrong for me to try to enjoy the time I have?

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